Why is it that you have to destroy my dreams, my hopes, my motivation, my thinkings, my ideas and my life EVERY SINGLE TIME! It is that bad for my existence?!
You think I want to be late for school?! You think I want to spend your precious money and take cab to school?! You think I want to study until so late in school everyday?! You think I want to skip my dinner at home and spend money to eat outside?! You think I want to sleep late?! You think I really wanted to study so much?!
All because of what?! You tell me lah! Yes, my future. Perfectly correct answer. But frankly speaking, my heart has always been going against you all! Just that my mind don't allow it. Can't you see I am trying so hard to do all these?! It may not be that tough everytime but there are the tough times and YOU will be the one stepping in to make it worse.
You think education in Singapore is easy?! You think managing so many things at one go is easy? Why do you always want me to be someone normal, someone that follows everything and develop my character like a robot?!
My heart tells me to rebel, to go against and leave house. But my mind says the otherwise. My heart wants me to vent my anger. My mind ask me to calm down and do the morally right things.
没办法, 我不知道该怎么做. 我只好做个你们要看到的乖孩子. 你们开心就好. 我不受苦, 谁受苦?
家家有本难念的经.
pandaboo penned at 8/21/2007 11:02:00 pm
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家家有本难念的经 i agree with wad u sae.. but not to worry, u are not the only one in this world hu is suffering under such conditions. many a times, there are pple out there hu are going thru far worse situations den u. it's difficult to stay happy, or even tiring to try do wazd they want. but jus stay +ve. =) there will alwaes be light at the end of the tunnel. there'll always be the other side of them. keep a lookout for it. and remember to stay +ve! =) all the best for ur prelims!! hee..
Well, went to watch Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi today. A Jay Chou show. He acted and he directed. Well, the storyline is a little weird which I can't describe. But there is this sad feeling inside me. They were together in the end and I have no idea why i feel sad -.-"
Is it because he went back 20 years ago? So feel like watching what happen next, but it won't be nice if it showed everything right? haha..
The 2 girls are pretty. Both are cute too. Sam said that the Chinese they speak wasn't standard, but if it were to be standard, it will be so weird right? The movie wants to show how the normal people communicate mah..will you communicate with your friend in perfect English or Chinese? hahaha!
Well, i find their conversations quite cute =) Felt sorry for that girl, no one believes her at first.. haha...
Overall, this movie was quite good even though it's acted by jay.. haha! It gives us the really mysterious feeling. Why does "ai qing" have to be so nice and perfect only in movies? hmmm~ seems like living in that movie is so exciting =\
pandaboo penned at 8/11/2007 07:42:00 pm
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yes yes, i do agree that the movie was trying to portray a very "enticing" and "interesting" image whereby they engage in street/hip and casual conversations. However what i was trying to bring across was that it wasn't professional enough for it to be shown on the big screen. I do enjoy those street/hip and casual conversations as well, such examples may include chick flicks from Hollywood. Although it is informal, what makes it professional is the way they speak, pronounciation, diction and the words itself of course. I am also sure that their conversations are a far cry from the way we communicate. That's what makes it interesting!
Hi to the one out there reading my post. To the one that used "peas" in his latest post. Outsiders can skip this post.
Actually, I have many things to write in this post. Regarding your last post. I want to do something as a friend and say something as a friend. I will say it is to help you, but you may see it as "bullshits" to you. I do not know you long enough and I can't comment on your characters. I have no idea whether the first "pea" was referring to me. But it sounds like me since there were only 2 guys and I don't think the other one said anything.
Well, I didn't know things got this serious until someone told me. I want to cool things down, but you said about someone having the "angelic" look or expression. Then I shall not be the angel here to cool everything down and helping everyone. I believe the first part of your post was referring about me. Well, I admit that I have no idea what I have done. I only called you all to come down and join us. In a peaceful manner.
I have no idea what you were referring to when you said "he looked dam pissed when replying the sms". Yes, I am really pissed at the point when you all refused to go to the field to join the rest of 06S19 for the games. I was disappointed. I couldn't believe that you guys can come out with excuses like "it is so hot!", "it is so lame" etc. You guys rather stay there and bridge. You all refused to join even though the teacher came to chase you all. You all even waved bye to me when only me decided to go down.
Alright, I don't want to go into details since you say you have the right to choose what you want to do. I agree. And you said you will bear the consequences. Of course you should, "choices have consequences." But then, do you know what are the consequences? The consequences are right in front of you, you get scoldings from classmates because 11 of you abandoned them. You gave others the impression of you, you showed others your character and your choices. I have no idea it is good or bad. Everyone sees it differently and i shall be neutral here.
AND how you faced the consequences? You bear it? Joke. You went home being fumed and blogged about it, scolding others and saying how you should be right. And showing how s19's existence isn't important.
You said about skipping the games is similar to skipping schools. You said that we skipped lessons and you guys did nothing. Well, we bear our consequences of not learning anything. However, lessons are lessons and it is for individuals to learn. It does not need a group of people to come together to learn. For the games, we need the whole class to be present to play the games. And for your info, we actually planned to take pictures as a class and send it for the CD making. I am also doing something about the photos. I didn't mention it at all. THEN, You know how pathetic we looked? When the group of JC1s looking at how tiny our class is. You know how it feels?
I am very sure that if you were the j1s, you will be shouting.. "Haha! look at that class! So pathetic! They only have 7 people!" You will be laughing your ass out. *You may be disagreeing with this, but i can confirm that.*
We were told to enjoy the games as a class, to go around playing games. But a large group of you decided to be left out. Giving lame excuses such as "stomachache", "hot" and all these crappy excuses just to go play cards games. Not as if those planned games will kill you! You guys made choices, 11 of you made choices for 18 of us to bear it. Majority wins? My ***. (i'm trying hard not to go vulgar)
Seeing how other classes enjoying themselves, how do we feel? We sat at the corner of the Audi, just like the abandoned children seeking for happiness. We feel envious of others, while anger filled us when we thought of how the class decided to go.
Actually, I have many more things to say. I have many many more things, serious. If I am your very close friend, I will be scolding you upside down. Frankly speaking, it is because I don't understand you enough and you don't understand us at all, that's why I try to keep it nice. I don't wish to see things break out. This is not a war, don't self declare war. This has never been war. The part on "there is only 7 people in the class" was a joke, just to console ourselves. Just to vent some of our anger instead of scolding vulgarities at you guys. But what do you see it as? an insult? Why an insult? Read your 2nd paragraph.
I was appalled after I read the 2nd paragraph. I thought there was still hope, until i see these sentences.
"2 more months or even less and our paths will split.. like i said, we have our own choices to make and our own consequences to bear if our choices are wrong so you can make a choice now whether u want this 2 months to be a memorable one or a saddening one"
I would really want to know what is your choice. Maybe you don't mean what I understood from that paragraph. But combined with your entire post and PS section. You seem to me that you dislike s19 and feel that it is not anything important. I know 2 years as a class is short. I know this class is not as perfect as you think it will be. But this is fate. Maybe you think that s19 was just an inn, temporary. Not everyone can agree with you. Not everyone can dota with you. Not everyone can complete assignments so fast as you. Not everyone can learn with you. Not everyone can skip stuffs just like you. Not everyone like what you like. And not everyone can be as selfish as you. I know, this is a strong word which I don't want to use. But you left me with no choice with that paragraph. Please pardon me. You could say that not only you skipped, others did too. I know, but the way you blog about it, make us feel we were at the wrong instead.
I hope I am not making myself sound perfect. I am not perfect. I am expressing myself in my point of view. Take it or not is up to you. I wish S19 could be peaceful. I don't want to see fights and internal warfare within the class.
But I repeat myself, your post made me feel disgusted. Everything was alright until your post which I guess no one could resist to say something.
Peace out.
This post is meant for good intentions. You may view it otherwise, then read again. Understand the underlying meaning. *actually it has no bad intentions*
Well, it's all over and let's move on and start afresh. You no need to say anything anymore. You guys just left us with the games and we just got angry for awhile. That's it! It's not something continuous. We know each other well enough.
hahaha! Everything that happened recently seemed so comical sia. Maybe not on me, but on my friends and all... I see people 'screwing' themselves up, see others sabo others like siao and see some people involved in dramas.. hahaha!
hmm.. Everyone seem to be pia-ing for A levels. No one in a right mind will say that you are crazy when you stay in school and mug till 8pm everyday. In fact, they will say that you are crazy if you slack too much. Today I saw dengkai's confidence in attaining straight As for prelims. I see chunwa's determination to beat dengkai. Even kc is studying till 2am everyday. While for me? I slept 6 hours in the afternoon yesterday. That's a little too much. Frankly speaking, it's crazy as we left with about 40 days to prelims.
With 4 subjects and 1 language, with about 20 chapters for each H2 subject. Siao right? And kc was saying "how I wish it's only april now. and we are studying at this rate in april" It's not too late to regret, but somehow, it's a little too late eh?
I lost my physics touch. I am struggling with maths and chemistry. Economics will be quite okay if i read up. GP? remains a question mark.
Alright, I guess i shall do something now.
AND TERENCE.. keep ur bloody mouth shut lah!!! almost made me so embarrassed today.. idiot.. always sia u.. u dun feel it nia -.-"""
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