I suddenly dun feel like blogging wad i wanted to blog just now.. abt my PW my day..my life..
i actually dun wish u to read this post... but i also feel tat u shld read this post.. but if this post will make our relationship worse.. i hope u dun read it den...i do not wish my post will casue any more conflicts
i read somethg tat i wish i dint read.. nth is as hurting as tat.. although it is nt directed at me.. but it is related to me.. i am nt really directly invloved in the whole thg.. but i muz say.. i am in the middle.. middle position.. mayb i am the cause for the whole thg.. i may be born as a bastard to u.. but how the hell i noe?!
I don't really know wad happened then.. but frm wad i can see.. alot thgs happened.. u r nt happy and i am nt happy too.. u may think i live happily but i dun really..... compared to u.. i mayb live a better life.. but.. sometimes.. it is juz so different..i dunno how to describe
i am at one side.. i dunno how u felt at the other end.. but frm wad u wrote.. i think i can feel it... i dunno who is at fault.. i do not noe the whole thg.. but frm my side.. i heard quite some of negative thgs on ur side..i think this is expected lah.. i'm nt sure how ur side thinks abt my side.. but frm wad u wrote.. i think u also had lots of negative stories abt my side..
yah.. it's abit weird tat actually we are all in one 'room' but we are separated somehow...i knew u will dislike him.. but din noe till such a large extent... u complained abt him.. but he complained abt u also.. ok.. i'm nt gonna make thgs worse.. but i think u expected this also.. i am in a neutral position becuz i do not noe wad had actually happened.. i only noe tat ur call.. brought along lots of fires here also.. u seldom called.. and ur this rare call juz came in to look for somethg u want.. i think this is the reason y the fire spark off...becuz frm wad we remembered.. ur calls only come when u r in need of somethg
i'm living in a war area since then... but frm my side.. he had gav in alot.. frm the stories i've heard.. he had done quite alot part in wad he shld be doing... no choice.. it's a fact tat we are now in different room.. he cannot provide the treatments he could giv in the same room.. but den.. actually.. i feel the same as u too.. he is nt close to me either.. i seldom tok to them also.. i sometimes wonder who am i.. y am i so different frm others..mayb becuz of tat incident and the 'feel' is different..
i tell myself i shldnt hav posted this.. but u wrote somethg abt someone tat is closely related to me.. i read it and i cant control myself to help defend him.. afterall.. he, to me is as closely related as the 'her' to u..
i dunno much thgs and i repeat.. i hope i dun spark off more fires if u read my post....in my opinion.. i think u shldnt hav blamed him for the every suffering u had.. i can somehow understand how u feel and the hatred in u.. but den.. sometimes.. u shld control it and tok nicely.. mayb i'm nt in the position to comment anythg here.. or maybe i dun even hav the permission to make comments here...but tats wad i think.. frm wad i noe...
i dunno wad i am writing here.. but den.. i juz wanna write..i am suffering too.. emotionally.. i do not noe which side i shld trust...
peace
i juz feel like hiding in a corner.. a silent corner.. i wan to think. rest my mind.. but i dunno wad i wan to think.. i feel so lost now.. i just feel like spending big bucks on food.. to fill myself up.. and slp the whole day.. but the prob is.. i'm broke.. really.. trust me.. my family got $0 income now.. resources are limited and may be depleted anytime if anythg happens..really.. dun u all think i am a rich kid or wad.. i am juz a person tat u all think i spend alot on thgs.. but i save them in another way.. really.. i only spend quite alot money on frens.. juz becuz i put frens on almost the same lvl of importance as family.. mayb becuz i am considered the only child and my relations to my parents isnt tat strong...
this is one of the first times i used so much censorship in my blog.. juz becuz.. i dowan to say it all.. for some reasons.. if u dun understand.. plz dun ask me..i hope i will recoever soon.. and hope our relationships get better someday.. i need u sometimes.. really.. i am still a kid and i cant decide lots of stuffs.. i hope u can btw...
hope tat the new month will be a better month.. 明天会更好!
does this shows my mood?
juz dled the windows media player 11 beta.. very chio
i long time nv blog liao.. now finally hav some time to blog.. although tml i still need to go sch cuz of some holiday lessons.. 8am.. to 2pm.. sianz.. almost feel like still in sch day lor..
but however.. it's holiday now! wooo! holiday! but den.. i am nt very happy now leh... i dun hav the happy feeling like last time.. last time when we heard of holiday.. wah.. it's really a time of fun and fun...but as i grow up.. holiday seems to be nth.. cuz we still hav lessons.. we still need to do hw.. we still hav to prepare for the common test tat is coming up..
ppl in poly still do nt hav holiday.. so.. we still cannot really play games all these.. and surprsingly.. i start to lose interest in games.. and as usual.. games tat doesn't involve frens playing will nt be interesting.. i was addicted to 'need for speed most wanted' for awhile but i now lost interest liao.. cuz.. i juz feel so boring playing alone.. mayb cuz i got no time to play games during sch days with my poly frens or mayb cuz they hav no time to play when i am having holiday.. tats y i lost interest in games.. it will be fun if there are ppl wan to play DOTA together.. i dun mind.. but now.. i seems to like outings more than staying at home and play games alone.. haha..
ok nvm.. let me tok abt wad happened this week.. ok.. this week.. sch days.. as i said..as usual.. haha.. but den this week is common test! it's nt the same common test tat we used to noe in bnss.. but this common test means midyear exam -.-".. the percentage are quite high lor.. and so.. as usual.. i'm very last min and i studied till 4am and 3am.. all these la.. study like siao for econs but in the end.. i was killed by nt readin the qn carefully.. they say refer to the market of some books.. but i tot the qn is refering to wads in the book.. so i din care abt it.. stupid rite? the whole qn 14marks gone.. chinese.. ok la. alot words i dunno.. den ahya.. dunno la..
ok.. fri was physics.. i too last min.. i studied till 3am but still couldn't finish.. and end up reading formulas on the way to sch but in the exam 'room'.. i forgot everythg.. and i was half asleep when i was doing MCQ.. MCQ first qn already killed me.. it's physics! u all will tot i am gd at it.. but den.. O lvl is different!.. this time.. i dunno EVERYTHG! i gonna fail badly this time man.. really gonna fail.. Zzzz
ok.. after physics.. i hav some stupid chem lecture which i dun even wan to pay attention.. juz becuz i am so sad over my physics.. so.. i slacked the whole lecture -.-".. and den.. i went to tm with my classmates.. while waiting for kc's reply to say wad time we meeting to go the tp carnival.. but den he replied.. saying 3pm den meet.. while i 12.30pm released liao.. i was thinking we can meet at 1.30pm since i go there only 15mins.. but den he said 3pm.. while we hav to meet victor they all at 5.30pm for movie and dinner.. -.-" like tat where got time.. so in the end.. we din go..
and so.. we met victor they all at 5.30.. went to plaza sing.. and tot tat we can get tickets for xmen 3.. but den.. it's full lah! i checked liao victor dun believe -.-".. den we took train to orchard and luckily bought the tickets at lido.. we sat at the 3rd row! -.-" i watch till headache ah.. but before tat... we went lucky plaza to hav our dinner... $3 for chicken rice.. if i nt wrong.. it's the cheapest we can find in orchard liao i think.. haha..
ok.. den we walk around and went home.. den me and kc and dan played DOTA till very late.. haha.. siao lah.. whole day so tired but we still play..
den saturday.. went out with biondi in the morning.. actually 10.30am but i delaye till 11.30am.. haha.. sry abt tat.. den we went 'the cathay' to watc da vinci code.. nice cinema.. nice place.. nice sales assistance at the counter and nice movie.. haha.. quite nice lah the movie.. juz tat i abit dun understand....ok..
den we slack around.. walking around looking at so many teenagers.. den went marina square.. had our 'lunch' at some hong kong restaurant.. nice leh! but den dam ex.. i eat till pok!.. den met up with ky and we went to watch xmen 3.. =X yah.. it's the 2nd time i watch it.. sry ar biondi and ky... i din tell u all.. cuz i sure kena diao one.. haha.. cuz i booked to watch with bio and ky liao.. den my fren called me and go watch on fri.. no choice.. and cuz i long time nv go out together with joel victor jun xiong hafidz liao.. this is a rare chance for a guys outing.. so many ppl somemore.. so.. i go lor.. nvm lah watch 2 times.. i enjoyed the 2 times.. haha..
ya.. so.. like tat lor.. and today slept till 5pm cuz i got nth better to do.. haha
haiz.. i was abit crazy this week and i sometimes said the wrong thgs at the wrong time.. sry to all out there.. sometimes i juz really jk and kidding.. but u all took me so seriously.... cuz i was abit crazy and mayb cuz of the influence i had in sch to become abit siao siao.. joke around everythg.. sry ahh.. i really dont mean it.. i'm really kidding and.. so.. yah.. haiz.. dun take it seriously.. i tot i was like tat since sec sch time? but den.. haiz.. dunno la.. mayb different effect on msn.. but den.. msn is the only place i do joke around.. nvm bah.. really sorry about tat..
haha.. my father juz came in.. and said "so late still haven slp.. no one can help u liao.. " and closed the door.. haha.. so funny.. but den.. used to it.. alright.. i go le.. will blog again next week... or mayb.. few days later.. cuz now holiday.. got alot time for these thgs.. haha
my class.. haha
childish ppl playing with 'trains' in the lab
showing off.. me using IE7 and msn live messenger.. haha
rumoured N83 with 5MP and all the features tat N80 hav..plus more.. can slide up and down.. 2 ways
woo woo... now is 6.21pm when i started writing my blog.. i woke up at 4pm today.. haha.. u guys will think y i slp so long.. but actually.. i slept at 5am this morning.. i very suay.. i knew my parents will wake up soon and i feel tat they will wake up soon.. so i faster wanted to off my comp and go off lights and slp so tat they wont notice anythg.. but den i suay suay go click on the sony ericsson program and my comp hang there.. wanted to close the thg but cannot! den.. i heard the door opening.. and i noe i am dead.. Zzz..
as expected.. my mother came in and scolded me.. scold scold shout shout till i very fed-up.. it's sat night! cant i juz waste my own slping time to play some games or chat online? den she started to balme me for nt doing hw.. and waste my time on comp.. plz la.. theres lots of thg other than comp lor.. it's abt keeping in touch with others and chu jin gan qing lor.. they dun understand lah.. comp is like a gateway to the world.. to ur frens.. to everythg =X.. like the tel phone.. like meeting each other everyday.. it's the same thg mah!
den when i woke up.. i get scolded again lor.. den my mother keep tell my father saying tat i play till 5am nv study.. no wonder i sick or wadever shit.. den make till my father so fedup.. den my mother call her frens to tok..den repeat whole thg again.. den complain to her fren tat i nv tok to her at all... say tat when i come home.. i straight away go use my comp.. nv tok to her AT ALL and say i even forgot mother's day all these.. but den.. dunno la.. mother's day... wad can i do? later i buy thgs for her.. den father's day how? feels weird to buy thgs for my father lor.. dunno lah.. my relationship with my parents nt very close.. nt very gd.. cuz.. i cannot remember times when we really sit together and tok.. wad i remembered was the days when i get scoldings.. and i cry for hours and hours...scoldings.. discouragements.. all these are wad is in my mind.. is it my fault? i dunno..
den.. my mother say i buy the newsweek and nv read at all.. den keep socld me.. but den.. i everyday so busy! how to read! i dun even hav time to read newspapers lor.. den still require me to read this and tat.. den do hw den study... den do well for exams.. all these.. frm looks.. they dun seem to be demanding parents.. but frm their speech and expressions.. they are placing lots of stress on me.. tat they dun even realise it and says tat i got no stress.. win le.. i got nth to say.. they wont realise anythg even till i tell them.. believe me.. it's no use.. i will always get a negative reply.. tried before..
ok.. stop all tat..actually wanna write all tat in chinese.. but den.. lazy lah.. den rememebered i got my reading logs haven do and my chinese compo till now haven do... and haven study for chinese.. i worry for my common test.. which is my midyear exam.. haiz..
ok.. lets tok abt ytd.. ytd morning woke up.. meeting kc and dan to go MI carnival at TOH TUCK which is very far away at clementi.. so we met up at 12pm.. den reach there at around 1pm.. the carnival is crowded and HOT!.. haha.. k la.. we had some fun.. and saw some of our PAE frens.. like tat lor.. we hav $60 carnvial coupons to spend.. and we end up throwing away some.. cuz cant finish it.. everywhere is crowded.. and as we trying to clear our money.. we bought drinks at $2 per cup.. beehoon at $4.. play some stupid games at $2.. and nuggets at $1 each.. lols..
kk.. so we left the place at 4pm.. and made our way to douby ghaut to meet nat they all for the movie.. we reached at 5pm and we are the earliest.. we slack at the mrt stations like some homeless ppl sitting at the corner.. haha.. den victor came.. so we tok tok tok and got stressed by him!.. wad he said will really make us guilty of wad we did.. saying tat we are stressful in jc? come on.. compare to him man! lolx.. all the sentence tat cmoe out frm his mouth will really let u say "siao!".. haha..
kk.. though it is nt a large turn out.. only 6 ppl including vic.. we went to eat dinner.. at mcd.. sianz rite.. lolx.. but nvm.. long time i nv eat mcd le.. den vic got some thgs on and he left to esplanade.. while we went to suntec an marina square.. walk around.. go esplanade take pics all these.. went to carlton hotel for our memories and took some pictures there... den went to marina square watch "over the hedge" cuz da vinci code sold out already.. so the 5 of us.. watched the movie.. quite nice and funny.. haha.. long time nv watch animations liao..
kk.. den its around 10.30pm only.. so we walked around.. and decided to take a ride on a water taxi.. haha.. the whole boat only hav us.. so we were on the boat taking pictures all these.. den nth much.. 11.30pm.. went home.. and heng.. we took the last bus home.. haha.. ok la.. this outing dun hav much ppl go.. but quite fun.. yah.. i think all of us enjoyed.. =)
`25/11/05 remember?
yeah~ we are back again
took outside the esplanade, i was holding the cam.. haha
while we are on the boat, i was holding the cam too.. haha
we looks like tourist rite? haha.. nice angle rite? one pro help us take one my hair suxs.. i tried to wax but den failed.. lolx.. nvm
pandaboo penned at 5/21/2006 05:34:00 pm
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wa..haha..i shld have gone there too..since i ended up going out wif family..haha..hmm..ya..tym to start ur revision..haha
hello all.. i 1 week nv blog le.. since my last post.. i kena flamed by alot of ppl le -.-".. btw.. i finally found time to blog..
k.. i start frm last week bah.. ok.. last sat.. after the stupid 1 hour maths lecture.. me and my class went to play pool at parkway.. frm wad i noe.. we spent quite long on travelling.. and they play cards all the way to parkway -.-" .. but the thg is.. i dunno how to play the game called "bridge".. so i din play lor.. den when reach parkway.. we met up with weekiat.. which i think will be the last outing outing with him.. and they all went to change.. wah.. i so surprised the guys all got bring jeans to change.. i din.. i juz bring one shirt and change... i looks weird lah.. cuz of the green sch pants.. tat dun really match with my orange shirt... but heck lah.. no choice..
they actually wanted to go to the 5th storey tat pool.. but den it is close.. yays... so we went to the 10th one.. nobody one! cuz morning mah.. den i passed with my sch pants.. lolx.. we opened 3 tables and played 2 and a half hours if i nt wrong.. i became one of the pros there.. -.-".. i anyhow play one lor.. even i myself is nt satisfied with my shots.. i wanted to shoot straight den it went curve.. Zzz.. den alot tyco shots lah.. i played dunno how many rounds.. and i only lost to jinghuang for one 9-ball match.. Zzz.. he shoot very accurate lor.. but den.. i still the overall winner lah.. hahaha.. my this kind of standard go there also win.. weird.. but when i play with dan kc they all.. wah.. i kena trash.. lolx..
den went to meet biondi to cut hair.. ok lah.. spent $22.. siao.. so ex.. but experience lor.. cut until ok lah.. but u all noe.. i dun wax or gel one.. so in the end.. like cut normal like tat.. lolx.. and we rush.. night time went to play badminton with him.. he dun play badminton one lah.. so.. quite expected.. he will miss shots and spend most of the time picking up the shuttlecocks.. Zzz.. but nvm.. if go soccer.. i sure kena trash by him.. haha..
ok.. den we hav the sea sports carnival heats on monday.. as i said.. we din join the dragonboat.. ( however i heard my squash members say tat 7 guys with 6 girls also can row! ).. we hav 5 girls and i think we had 8 boys.. shld be able to row also wad.. but den.. dunno lah.. very unorganised.. the heats was dam boring till around 5.45pm.. one of the last event.. JC1 BOYS canoe relay! yay.. finally hav chance to row.. we found a sub.. royston pair up with me for the canoe..
ok.. tat was exciting.. kenneth and gabriel the first canoe and me and royston the 2nd.. while the pros.. darryl and jonathan quek.. the 3rd canoe.. they dam fast lah.. ok... first canoe.. they chiong.. gabriel got no experience and was quite slow.. and the thg is.. other canoe hit ours! the current is really strong lor.. den they hit dunno how many times and stuck when making the turn back.. and when we shout to ask them come back to shore at the position we standing.. they go turn and go another side.. den turn back again.. wasted lots of time..
den when they come back.. me and royston faster turn the canoe and jump in.. and we row row row.. wah.. the current is so strong tat we somehow turned to the left.. and my coordination with royston suxs.. i cant hear his timing as everyone is shouting lor.. den when i right.. he left.. and i believe my paddle hit him lots of times.. haha.. cuz i canoe left right left right quite fast.. den his is strong btu slow.. den somehow he cant catch up.. ok.. den i am so anxious.. din even noe we came to the turning part until he shouted turn.. i blur! i turned put the paddle at the left and tot we turning left since our canoe is facing more to the left.. but den i realise royston is trying to turn right cuz we planned to turn right at first..
so.. i faster change my placement of the paddle to the right.. and used the brake and push method tat is very risky but will turn fast.. darryl asked me nt to use it.. he ask me juz brake can liao.. but i brake and push forward with my right.. and we turned really fast.. the canoe almost capsize and i can feel water rushing in.. wah lau.. den i immediately stop the pushing or else we will sure capsize.. den we faster paddle forward.. as wad i said juz now.. we din coordinate well and so.. somehow no teamwork.. lolx.. i juz chiong chiong chiong.. and the current is pushing us to the 'right' ( cuz we on our way back to shore) .. and i had to use the brake and turn method to make sure we dun drift too much to the stones side.. and den when we reach shore.. the 2 pros faster rush in the canoe and chiong.. and heard we came in 3rd.. nt sure.. means we may hav chance to join the real sea carnival! woohooo!!
btw.. i also got join my cca's dragonboat event.. it will sure be fun.. hehe.. shiok.. ok.. tue.. so tired.. cuz of the event and like tat.. same old routine.. wake up go sch come back slp.. nth else.. until ytd.. i felt tat i hav abit of sore throat.. and went to see doctor.. and he say i got fever also.. sianz.. my tat time the illness came back.. den i got MC.. but MC only excuse for PE! nt for sch! sianz.. but nvm lah.. den today had my chinese oral exam.. dam sucky.. the passage so long with so many words i dunno.. den when reading out... i shivered and i keep stopping at the time when i shouldn't stop.. and the whole sentence i read became so weird.. so i got 22/30.. ok lah.. nt bad lah.. den the conversation.. my teacher say i lack of content.. sianz.. long time nv touch chinese le.. speak also seldom speak in chinese.. everyone in jc seems to speak english only.. den when i speak chinese.. everyone will giv me a weird look -.-" .. or mayb i juz feel weird.. haha
ok.. so i am back at home.. slacking and blogging! btw.. forgot to say.. i think i wed night watched the match or barca vs arsenal till 4.30am.. so i am sick.. lack of slp.. haha.. k lah.. nth else le.. juz writing wad i done for this week bah.. no new photos.. wanted to take sea sports carnival.. but no chance.. i will take it the next time den.. =)
eh ppl.. dun shoot me leh.. i juz meant tat cuz got 2 ppl left le.. so the class abit sian! cuz noe very quiet le.. dun u all realise tat? mayb the front nt quiet la.. but the back very quiet le.. Zzzz... u all misunderstood me...
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i'm bored.. i'm really bored.. nt juz bored of studying...nt juz bored of schooling.. but bored of life.. mayb becuz schooling is my life.. and so i'm bored of it.. yes.. i got new sch,new class, new frens.. i shld be having fun rite? but i think u all shld noe y i'm so bored..
nt saying my class is bad.. but it's juz uncomparable to my previous sec sch class.. i tot ppl in jc will be more fun.. yes they are.. but nt my class.. nt toking bad abt my class.. but after 2 person left our class to poly.. our class seems breakdown.. there were supposed to be 3 grps.. one grp are those muggers.. den another is those tat study hard but also sometimes crap abit in class.. another grp are those who play hard and joke alot in class..
the 3rd grp already broke down with 2 main character left to poly.. and so.. the whole class seems lack of soemthg.. lack of life.. it seems dead.. i'm nt sure abt the next 2 years, but frm wad i see now and if this carries on.. i will really regret coming to jc.. regret the choice of my combi.. i noe some of u will say i am stupid.. i am a loser or wadsoever.. and will be saying tat "juz becuz of these.. u prefer poly..tats stupid".. yes i noe.. but wad i see is nt frm academic point of view lah.. ok.. abit confusing here.. but the life i expected in jc is different.. yah i noe.. coming to jc is nt juz to hav fun and hav 'life'.. but to study and aim hard to enter uni.. yes i noe! go uni go uni go uni.. dun keep drilling this into my mind.. i noe! and u all meant study study study is the most imp.. i noe! i din say it's nt imp.. but 2nd thg in jc is abt having fun.. which till now.. i din experience it...
the sea sports carnival is coming soon.. most classes will be taking part in at least 2 events.. dragonboat is the most popular and den canoeing.. we wanted to take part in both.. but becuz 2 of our men left.. we do not hav enough ppl for the canoe relay and the dragonboat.. dragonboat need at least 14guys for the no. of girls we hav now.. we hav 14 guys.. but nt all wan to participate.. some say they dowan.. some say they will hav sea sick.. some dunno how to swim or wadever other excuse.. with few of them nt participating.. it caused all of us unable to join the event.. and for canoe relay.. we are still trying to persuade 2 ppl to take over.. but.. i dun think there will be anyone.. monday will be the heats already.. if we still cant find enough ppl.. we will be disqualified.. and i will be out of the 2 events.. and so.. the fun for this sea carnival will be strike off for 2 years.. and on the event day.. i can imagine my whole class will be sitting on the benches and playing poker cards.. tat is crappy lor..
like last time sports day.. for the whole event.. there is one grp of ppl staying under the big yellow umbrella playing cards -.-".. and proudly shout at me "i am nt running wad!".. ahyo.. nt running also can sit with us to chat or wad mah.. Zzz.. dun get me wrong if u read this.. i dun mean to scold u or wad.. i juz saying la.. cuz.. nvm -.-"
i really hope my class to get alive and get a life! be more enthu can? haiz.. ok now i gonna complain.. plz bear with me.. haha.. i sian lah.. abit regret choosing chem as one of my H2 subject.. i really hav lots of prob coping with it.. it may seem easy at first.. but when i look at the qns.. i dunno wad the qn wans! at least for phy.. i noe..but dunno the methods to do.. haha..tat one can learn.. H2 maths is somehow compulsory.. so no use toking abt it.. and for econs.. i juz need to study more.. cuz the notes they giv is nt enough AT ALL.. i need to read the slides all these.. or else i wont understand at all.. ok back to chem.. haiz.. tat time.. y i din go for the chem intro lecture?! or did i go? haha.. i dunno.. but if i have a choice now.. i will nt choose chem.. i'm nt gonna go into chemical engineering or wad mah.. so.. chem dun seem to be quite imp for me.. but at tat time, i tot chem is quite imp...so i choose the most common combi lo...
wah.. if i choose other combi like 2 humanities subjects.. den i will be going to a class with more girls den guys.. haha.. dunno leh.. frm wad i observe.. those classes with phy chem will hav more guys than girls.. those classes with 2 or more humanities subject will hav very little guys.. and quite a balance in bio chem combi.. haiz.. wasted =X ... lolx.. jkjk
haiz.. i miss textbooks! i prefer textbooks than notes or slide sia.. slides can be interesting sometimes.. but it contains juz too little information lo.. textbooks are gd cuz they explain very clearly and got pictures got colours.. notes are so dull with whole page of words.. see liao also sian.. and flipping thru the notes suxs.. flipping thru textbooks are so much easier.. lolx..
today i planned to study and mug.. i mean today as in fri.. i wanted to.. but in the morning went play basketball.. so sian.. den afternoon got nth better to do.. so tired.. den decided to start mugging.. but in the end.. i am so dam lazy and i went to slp! i feel like slapping myself for tat.. i woke at 5pm and ate some stuffs to refresh myself... wanted to study.. but i hear the loud conversations of my parents till i sian.. den dowan get up.. so i slept till 7pm like tat and got forced to wake up and eat dinner.. hey! i juz ate nt long ago and now wan me eat again.. so i eat till dam sian.. ate for a very long time before i finish the food.. and i went back to my room and stone for 1 hour.. and i went surfing the net and chatting online.. and din noe time pass so fast till now.. juz now 11pm like tat i started to do some maths.. and i got stuck at the 1st qn.. i flip notes.. flip the MI notes i hav.. flip the TJC notes i bought last time.. and also flip my tpjc notes.. but i juz dunno how to do! omg lah.. the notes all hav to fill in urself one.. and i'm nt in first 3 months.. how i noe sia.. and in MI.. i knew how to do one.. but cuz long time nv touch it liao.. i forgot everythg le.. Zzz..
ohya.. i remember liao!.. juz now i was browsing thru those sec sch photos.. so nice.. so touching.. haiz.. i miss sec sch days!!!
sending sylvia off..the day juz after prom..everyone were tired
sending hsiuya off to UK..wonder when will we see her again
sending samantha off to canada..i think we still hav chance to see her again soon
arghh~ this suxs this suxs.. i am now trying very hard to study.. study and mug.. but i juz get so tired.. i came home at 6pm.. lie down awhile and i fell asleep.. tml.. or shld i say 8 hours later.. i will hav my econs test.. on the topics which i noe nth...wad market effiency and externalities.. i am so dead.. i cant find any notes for market effiency and the slides.. there are so many slides tat i dunno where to start! and somemore.. the slides use alot of short forms.. wad MSC MPC or wadever.. i think it is said in class but i dint really paying attention cuz she is going so fast and there is so many new terms tat i cant catch up..
i feel so helpless.. i ask my classmate abt the effiency notes.. and i guess i am too iriitating and he went offline -.-" .. nvm bah.. sad.. now i am stuck here.. dunno how to start.. where to start.. i really feel like going poly.. and my fren shoot me.. saying tat becuz of this and i wan to go poly.. i am such a loser.. yeah i noe.. but the pace here is so fast.. i am afraid i cant catch up..
i din go to sch ytd.. and i felt so left out.. so left behind.. i dunno wads going on at all.. i am juz like being off the track.. how? am i able to get back onto the track? it's night time now.. midnight to be exact.. it is the most peaceful moments.. it is very quiet.. i now only can hear the sounds frm the winding fans of my CPU and the engine of my aircon... and the sound of my keyboard when i type.. nth else.. everythg is so peaceful.. i dun see ppl busy doing their stuffs and hence the stress lvl decrease..
but when i see a stack of notes and ws tat i need to study and do.. i feel very lonely..very helpless.. very stressed.. haiz.. however.. mayb it's time for me to think abt it all over again.. and be wad i wan to be.. a nerd.
sian ah! i am now in sch..actually prepared to start a fresh new day..but i am Juz so unlucky lo..2 ppl frm my pw grp nv come! left we 3 slacker..i think i am the most talkative one in the group liao..as you all noe..i am a quiet person..you all can imagine how quiet and slack they are..and the 9 pointer in my group who din come today..planned to go poly! no! like tat my pw fail liao la! how!
haiz.. i'm on high fever ytd.. 38.1 degrees...mayb nt very very high but it's high enough to make me feel so very uncomfortable..
ok i start for fri..fri.. my sch got sports day..i was asked to sub in to run for 2 events.. one is the 4x100m and another is the 12x100m...but cuz of some reasons.. they dowan run for 4x100m.. they say wan concentrate on 12x100.. so nvm lor.. 12x100 i sub one china guy who pon tat day -.-".. den i chiong like siao.. dunno whether i run fast or slow... but our class won silver after the first one tio disqulified cuz they mix classes to run...so we got pushed up frm 3rd to 2nd..
and happily.. phoenix house own tat event.. 1st 2nd and 3rd all phoenix de.. owning la.. hahaha... ok.. cuz i long time nv run.. my muscle ache sia.. den after sports day.. actually wan go kallang squash centre to see see and wan buy racquet and shoe de.. den the biondi lah! forgot tat i wan go there.. den stay in SP till 3pm like tat.. den we only go there at 5pm.. so late.. and the thgs there are nt cheap also.. den after tat we rush to marina square.. watched Mission Impossible 3.. quite a nice movie.. but the plot and story abit common.. like nt very new..but still ok lah.. consider their money spent on the planes all these.. and the thgs like very style.. camera also can hav lcd screen inside.. a dot can also contains lots of information.. hahaha..
ok.. done with tat.. after movies.. i met up with dan and kc for supper.. tok tok tok till 12am.. den go home play dota.. at tat time.. my throat already abit nt feeling well liao.. den we play till very late and i slept at 4am.. woke up at around 1pm.. feeling dam uncomfortable.. sore throat very badly and temp very high.. i din noe i was having fever until before i go out to meet bio.. i measure my temp 2 times and it's 38.1.. Zzz but nvm.. since i already planned to meet bio to cut hair.. so i met up with him.. but i decided nt to cut hair.. cuz later i spread the diesease den die -.-"
den we went walking around to look at court shoes and i bought a pair of badminton shoe.. also can be used for squash.. biggest size they hav liao.. my feet is long.. hahaha.. den when i come back home.. measure temp.. 37.7.. dropped abit.. and watched elections thg.. and there is some flamings in the forums.. and i read them all.. haha.. bo liao mah.. play game also sian.. so i read lor..
den slp at 1am.. today woke up.. first words i hear are scoldings by my father.. asking me to wake up or else i can go die.. or wadever crap.. i dun wish to remember them anyway.. but hey! i am sick! cant i juz slp more?! and he juz use those words to force me wake up go bath and go see doctor.. Zzzz...cant he hav a nicer tone? btw.. i nv hear him having nice tone since i was young..
den went to see doctor.. the one i usually go see... ish crowded.. so went another clinic.. very few ppl only.. and the doctor seems abit blur -.-.. saw him keep cancelling wad he wrote.. ok.. the thg ish.. i got MC! yay.. den happily.. went home.. den meet up with dan they all to go nat hse and celebrate shie's bd.. this party seems to be a fiasco.. cuz firstly.. nat they all already had fun celebrating her bd overnight.. and when we went there.. there is no place for us to hav fun cuz the rooms are all booked.. and we went to a small area beside the swimming pool.. after few hours of slacking around.. den when we wan to play poker cards which we bought for $4.60.. i dropped 5 cards into the wooden plank.. dunno how to describe.. but.. drop inside and cannot take out! den i think we spent abt 1 hour trying to take out the cards.. and finally.. after some time.. we found tat one part can be opened and it is connected.. somethg like tat la.. den somehow we managed to get the cards out.. den we played some games and ppl smashed egg on me cuz i lost the game.. while some others were thrown into the pool.. haha.. ok la.. nth else.. den we went for dinner and went home...tats it...
s13 and some s19 combined photo for winning the 12x100m
- can u stop being so naive?! dun be too lame.. too crap.. too bo liao! it is nt funny sometimes and it is getting irritating for me.. i dun like to shoot u straight in ur face.. though i'm nt gd at it.. and i dun wish to do tat.. dun force me.. plz.. i beg u.. dun force me to become like some other idiots who i hate.. grow up plz.. i'm nt a nice person anymore..i dun wish to type this out but.. i juz cant stand it.. mayb cuz i am nt in good mood these few days.. but i juz cant stand it.. dun make me put u in my ignore list... -
quote of the day: "will i change? this remains as a qn"
today ish nt a gd day.. woke up early in the morning feeling so so so tired and dun feel like doing to sch.. i lie on my bed unwilling to get up.. den my mother fedup.. she go on the radio very loud till i feel very irritated and woke up.. zzzz.. packed by bag and chiong down to the busstop with my mind still slping...
lucky i managed to catch the bus... reach sch at 7.20.. dunno y.. these few days the bus very fast.. 25mins can reach liao.. den at sch slack.. den we had the student council investiture thgy.. surprisingly.. our sch hall got aircon! and so we stayed in the hall for more than 2 hours.. watching the whole thg.. omg.. their flash animation is very nice! the songs they used for the whole event is really nice also.. if i were one of the j2 student councillor who will be stepping down.. i will sure cry like wad everyone else did.. so touching..
but den.. saw charles (my classmate) looks weird and ppl say he gonna transfer to poly.. we discussed abt it and he is very sure he wan go poly.. my another classmate also.. yah.. wad he told me is right.. i failed all the test since the start of the sch.. i got 5/20 for econs and english i merely passed cuz the teacher is nt really marking on content and is very linient in her marking.. i am totally lost in Maths' chapter on "sequence and series".. physics.. 50 50 only.. chemistry.. HA? wad u all think?
and he said.. if we keep on failing like tat.. we wont be able to pass the promos.. and we will be wasting one year.. he dun wan to waste it.. might as well transfer to poly now.. at least an easier route for us.. yesh.. he said.. me and him quite same situation.. we are nt those who can really focus on studying.. compared to other ppl in our class.. who volunteered to ans qns.. to do hws and ask lots of qn.. paying attention in class and complete every single tutorial before-hand.. they are those real jc type.. me and him doesn't belong to jc.. we come home only slack.. play.. slp.. go sch slack play tok slp.. like tat how to improve? A lvls is nt like O lvls.. it seems to be quite easy with so few topics.. but den.. it's very difficult.. O lvls u can chiong at last min.. for A lvls.. everyone said.. u cant.. u hav to be consistent.. if u dowan to do hw.. at least listen in class and must understand.. and if u belong to those slow learner type.. den muz really study hard.. and mug...
after wad he said.. i am so scared.. yesh.. frm wad i see now.. i cant cope with the syllabus at all.. i dunno how will i score for the exams.. cuz i haven try any yet.. i wan to try it first.. to see whether i can do it.. but den.. by the time i am able to try the exams.. poly admission also over liao.. so now.. i am left in a confusion state.. my class the top scorer.. got 9 points in o lvls.. he's charles' cousin.. he also considering to transfer.. juz becuz the sch's teacher suxs.. and stress.. especially for PW..
i regret i nv go for PAE.. at least i can try out the real jc life.. whereas i went to MI.. slack all the way.. yah.. if i go jc for PAE.. i will also slack.. btu at least i noe the speed they are going.. and the work load.. the tests.. but i dunno.. i dunno whether i made the right decision to come jc now.. i dunno.. i belong to the lower end grp of ppl.. and yet i am still slacking.. it's nt tat i dowan study.. but i am those tat study liao also dun understand type.. i need slow slow slow learning.. studying is nt my interest.. and the subject combi.. suxs.. i shldnt hav choosen chem.. but wad else can i choose? how i wish the new syllabus is nt implemented on our batch.. or else i will juz be taking maths physics econs.. it's much easier.. 3 subjects to focus on only.. now i hav to deal with 2 sci.. phy and chem.. which is killing me.. phy in sec i can manage and i spent lots of time on it already.. and trying to pull up my chem grade at the same time.. for now... i need to focus all my concentration to one sci only.. or else.. i will be quite dead.. phy in A lvl is nt easy at all!!
but sianz.. i am so confused the whole day.. last quater of the day.. i became very quiet.. doing my own work.. thinking.. worrying.. and surprisingly.. i finished the phy pract very fast even though i recorded all the readings myself.. my classmates copy each other's one.. dunno y i do so fast also.. mayb i miss out some parts..
so confused.. i thinking for very long.. until i came home.. told my mother abt it.. and same.. she giv the "up to u" reaction.. yea it's up to me... but i bear the consequences.. she said.. if i go poly.. den they will hav to send me overseas liao.. wth? means poly cant go uni in sg? say until like tat.. yea.. i dowan my parents to waste money.. poly costs are high.. plus if i go uni.. it will be higher.. jc cost is quite low.. sch fees so cheap.. 2 digit only.. poly is 4 digits.. Zzz
and if i transfer to poly now.. it's very tidious.. troublesome.. and i hav to leave my class.. and will affect the PW grping.. alot of project's grping and events grping.. and if i go poly at this time.. it's quite hard for me to make frens there.. cuz they will hav found their circle of frens liao.. even if i go poly.. i will be alone.. so sian...
yea.. if i go poly.. i will miss the jc life.. the fun and interesting life it ought to be.. but den..now.. Zzz...and i dun think i can enjoy it anymore.. the jokers in my class are leaving.. and wads left are some hardworking ppl.. the class will be very dead and quiet..
for poly.. i see my frens playing.. slackin.. having fun.. with a very flexible timetable.. not stressful at all.. how i wish to be in their lifes.. mayb next time jc and poly system can merge.. studying a lvl with a speed and system like in poly.. shiok.. wearing uniform ish nice..
but nvm.. i think i will stay in jc.. if i fail my promos.. i may go poly den.. i dowan to score badly for A lvls.. it's wasting of time.. if i cant get at least 2 distinction.. wad for? if i cant cope with my GP.. i will fail badly.. i am so worried now.. worried for my GP.. worried for all my subjects.. yea.. kc may say i am toking rubbish.. i noe.. but den... think abt it.. i believe u got better abilities in studies.. ur o lvl results already show tat...i dun think i am suitable for this kind of fast learning in sch... but den... i made this choice already.. i hav to live with it..dun say i crap hor!
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Name : Wei Rong D.O.B : 17 September 1989 Race : 华人 Horoscope : Virgo Where?? : Singapore School : Maha Bodhi School
Bedok North 'low' School
MI bartley (1st 2 mths)
Tampines JC
Fav Snack : Chocolates!! Fav Food : Chicken Rice Fav Book : I don't read. Sports : usually swim, cycle and sometimes play some racket games Hobby : Play, Sleep and Eat Loves : Driving Wants: Peace and alot alot more.. Needs : MONEY!! IQ : 120 (as of Oct 2004)
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i'm actually a quiet person
others eat to live and live to study.. i am the opp
I study to live and live to eat =D
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Attain First Class Honours for my degree
Get myself a Honda asap
Own an AUDI before age of 30
Own Luxury & Supercars by age of 35 Get into Local University after NS(Came true)
Own a 6-Star Luxury Hotel
A high stable income
Have a house of my dream by age of 30
Get married before age of 30
Have a wonderful family
Learn piano =X
Learn flute =X
Go into R/C Hobby
Lamborghini Estoque
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Ever-increasing wishlist:
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New Friends
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