Saturday, January 21, 2006
arghh~ the sian sian feeling is back liao!!! its now 1pm and i juz woke up.. there's lots of thg i shld do.. but i'm juz so lazy.. and i wan to go out.. dun feel like staying home.. nth better to do.. no one is at home and i hav no game to play now.. no one is online to chat.. even hav.. i also abit no mood to chat.. haiz..
i dunno y i so sian lah~.. frm the time i recieved my pay.. i feel sian liao.. cuz i tot it would be $400.. but it became $280 ytd! 4 commission were nt paid.. 1 is cuz hse no cable point.. nv install.. den 2 of them is next month den get the pay.. den 1 more.. i dunno wth reason.. my dream of getting w900i is like broken.. i still owe ppl money.. i still needa buy lots thgs.. i already erase IPOD frm my wishlist liao...cuz i'm poor!
den wad else.. ppl are quiting MI liao.. few of them wanna withdraw liao.. den like tat only left me kc dan joel.. den when kc go back batam.. only left 3 of us liao.. so sian.. den sch also very sian.. now i keep skip sch.. i haven even hand in my profile tat paper..
ohya.. den i see those ppl in JC.. so envy them.. den i keep blame myself nv study liao.. see lah! i regret again liao!! i dowan same thg as PSLE to happen lor! arghhh~ but i also feel tat... jc quite stressful leh.. but i wan to be in it!!!! :(
den.. i now juz hav to control myself.. control the temptation around me... wanted to buy w900i when its $688.. but daniel and soem other ppl keep aksing me wait.. den no choice lor.. i wait lor! see how it drop price.. nv drop price den sian! den later the promo for the plan thgy no more liao i also sian!!! i'm scared.. cuz later i wait.. the feeling for w900i will slowly be gone.. den i will aim other hp liao... arghh~ i'm scare of it.. i dowan to buy it juz becuz i like it before and not now.. but nvm bah.. i am a poor guy.. i need to wait..
den see my fren.. he in tjc.... computing course.. den he juz signed for 10MBPS internet.. get a free N70 with free 2 years subscription.. den he also juz bought a new comp and the casing is the one i really wan... den now.. he saying he wanna buy PDA.. wah.. another big attack to my heart.. haiz.................. nvm.. money is difficult to earn.. i tolerate~~~!!!
now i will just live with the 8310 tat i borrowed frm him.. and wait.. wait bah... my ang bao money will get lesser and lesser... my high peak time also juz $200+.. but last year.. $100 plus only..
this year.. i think it will be less than $100.. i dunno y.. juz a feeling tat it will be like tat.. and now.. i really really dun feel the happiness for new year.. firstly.. my room is nt packed.. haha.. my fault i noe.. den.. not much new year stuffs bought.. and dun hav the atmosphere at all lor.. haiz.. felt so pain when i realise tat i nv help my mother clean the hse.. everythg rely on her.. haiz.... but i quite busy going out... den~.. i dunno wad excuse i can giv lah.. haiz...
den now.. my father retired liao.. however.. i dunno he go out everyday for wad.. but at least he came home very early compared to last time.. and he seems so tired.. he nv slp on the sofa when watching tv one.. but these few days.. 9+ only he feel tired and slp on the sofa liao.. haiz.. i'm so scared.. den now i heard my grandma is in hospital.. den i dunno other details liao.. haiz.....~ i'm still young ahh~ no one to depend on if anythg happen.. no one to guide me....
den few days ago.. saw my neighbour had a real big renovation.. change this change tat.. change to plasma tv.. change nice sofa change fridge.. waaa.. so rich.. while my tv keep having some prob for few years liao.. my father also dun intend to change.. i think we really had to save money liao.. and i will try to stop myself frm spending too much!!
i dun really hav the feeling to go sch.. i noe i shld study.. so.. if i go jc.. it will be easier for me.. but den.. i hav little confidence tat i can go jc.. nt cursing myself.. but its juz my inner heart feeling.. i'm now in holiday mood.. really holiday.. and in my dreams.. i wish i'm in a senerio like.. the whole hse no one.. parents go out.. only me at home.. and its rainning outside.. i'm in my room and on the speaker loud loud.. wah.. this is shiok.. but i will be sian cuz i will den hav nth to do...
ahhhh~~ shit lah! i dunno wad i'm toking.. juz ignore the whole thg!
pandaboo penned at 1/21/2006 01:20:00 pm
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
hello everyone again... i'm sick again.. so i had the time to blog liao.. cuz nth better for me to do.. sry i long time nv blog... btw.. like the leehom song? shit sia.. now keep advertising leehom liao.. see lah.. got influenced by kc liao..
btw.. very long i nv blog le hor.. last time walked into the pool liao den go aircon room.. 'gey kiang' go stand infront of the aircon.. make myelf flu.. den flu till now.. again 'gey kiang'.. eat 2 big piece of 'ba gua' without drinking water.. den now sore throat liao lor...den sick.. ytd go sch until 10.30 recess den request to go home liao.. but u wan go home.. nt so easy leh! muz climb all the way to the general office at the 3rd floor get a form liao den go find the my teacher to sign.. den go back to office let the principal sign.. den can go earlier leh... den today with my mc.. i nv go sch lor.. too sick liao
ohya.. back to my MI life.. the orientation was nt as interesting as i thought.. but the orientations in the JCs like mjc and tjc are fun!.. cy keep saying he had fun in mjc.. den tjc also had a mass dance at suntec and i went to watch.. everyone so enthu.. even anh was crazy!.. they play play play and had lots of fun lor.. mjc also alot outings.. but in MI.. my grp.. all like nt interested like tat.. all came for fun.. nv wan to make new frens like tat... but for daniel's grp.. all very enthu.. 3rd day den they all wan go out for outings liao.. wad go orchard all these.. lolx
ok.. talked abt my phone in my previous post.. my phone is dead.. 1st week of jan.. went to nokia to repair.. they say they found corrosion in the phone.. and say they will try to repair but will void the warranty.. den 3 days later.. they called and say it cannot be repaired.. no choice.. had to borrow a nokia 8310 frm my fren and use it lor.. den i check the websites all these.. my 6230i worth $300 when trade in leh!!! wah lau.. i heart pain till siao..
no choice lor.. had to go work to earn back.. last week.. few days after sch i went to work lor.. cuz kc they all also nv plan to go out anywhere.. so i decided to go work.. i worked for 4 days.. managed to get 7 sales.. abt $210 earned back.. but full payment only on 20th of feb.. sianz lor.. so i aim to get W900i liao.. last time the price was $1088 with 2 yr plan.. den i pray hard for it to drop price.. and finally! it dropped to $888 with plan..
wah~ wad a nice number hor.. 888 leh.. new year.. wan new phone... also at a 'lucky' price.. Zzzz.. den i read some reviews saying some bad points of the phone.. so.. i dun think it's worth the money to get it at 888.. so now i waiting for it to drop to $688.. but i wan it before new year leh!!
ok ytd.. although i came home early.. i still did nt stay at home.. i went to see doctor.. get mc liao den go jj hse.. get somethg liao den go bedok.. nth better to do.. but i going my fren's hse at 7pm.. den its only 3pm when i'm at bedok.. so lazy to go home first.. so i sat 69 and went to tampines.. cuz of the medicine effect.. i slept on the bus.. eee.. den got a feeling like ppl keep looking at me sia.. Zzz..
den tampines got one shop.. i go ask.. he say singtell sell $888.. they will sell at $788.. den i ask again.. den they say if get 2 3g hp.. den can get $200 off.. means each phone $100 off.. so its $688! wahhh~! when i wan to ask more to confirm.. the person like nt willing to entertain me.. keep asking me "how old are u now?".. den i say under 18.. she like bu shuang and dowan tok liao.. say wad muz parents come den can sign.. den i siao diao.. so i walk away lor..
nth better to do.. i went into challenger.. the alarm at the gate rang.. den i noe.. "shit.. i hav the network card, hdd and cable i juz bought with me.. wad shld i do now?".. den i panic lor.. cuz i wan go out.. den later ring.. wah sian.. so i wait for the person to come near the gate den i declare my stuffs in my bag.. den he take out and scan scan.. den say its the cable tat make it sound.. heng i got the receipt for the cable.. so.. tats alright.. heng.. nv make a fool out of myself..
den i take a slow walk to the mrt station and sit all the way to orchard to pass some thgs to my fren.. some invoices for my work de.. stay there and do nth until 6.30pm den take 7 to my fren's hse.. slept on the bus again.. so embrassing.. den heng i woke up in time to rush down to the busstop.. or else i gonna miss tat stop.. den went to his hse trying to fix his broadband problem.. but still cannot.. cuz its singnet tat side error..
ok.. gone too detailed liao.. zzz.. ohya.. classes for my MI are out liao.. me daniel kc joel yangyi all same class.. only jasmine and hafidz in another class.. and the lectures are damn boring! and monday we dun hav break until 1.30pm leh! all of us gonna die of hunger sia.. and the sch.. like an old folks home or hosipital like tat.. on the slope of a hill.. damn old buildings.. dun even hav a hall.. the classes are like batam sch like tat.. i finally feel tat BNSS is a better sch in terms of infrastucture.. lolx!
ok.. the lecturers there really suxs.. econs.. dunno wad the he saying... den management of business.. the person dun looks like very pro kind.. Zzzz... den H2 maths.. wah lau.. tat old guy.. revising A maths.. revise till dunno wad.. revise till i cant even remember wad i learnt.. cuz i cant even understand wad he say! wah lau.. how to study like tat? other sub i dunno lah.. cuz i miss 2 days of lessons liao.. but chinese.. tat teacher quite ok.. got say alot of "da dao li".. but say too much liao! keep saying how to live well.. wad we shld do.. wad we shld be like.. den somemore.. alot of her lifetime stories.. den worse thg.. advertise for his son!!
www.gaminghub.com.sgdot dot dot.. ohya.. sry sry i alot blogs i nv read.. hy and samantha got blog alot.. but i dun even hav time to read.. or mayb lazy to read lah.. actually i alot thgs to do.. pack my room.. do hw.. burn dvds.. alot lah.. but all i just lazy to do.. hahahah~.. btw.. wan MaxOnline or CableTV.. REMEMBER TO FIND ME!
pandaboo penned at 1/18/2006 09:38:00 pm
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Happy New Year 2006 everyone!! i'm very very tired now.. on the 31st dec.. went out with hy and daniel cuz hy wan buy thg.. den go buy lor.. early in the morning wan go liao.. den customer called me and say wan sign up.. so i was late again.. haha.. go out whole day den go hy hse to countdown with abt 15 ppl i think...quite fun lah.. but they almost depend on me for the cooking part lor.. wah lau.. dun even wan help.. but nvm lor.. i so kind.. i go help lor.. den countdown liao went downstairs to play the wad sparkle thgy.. den stupid thg.. was playing with my first stick..
den jj like playing with me lor.. den like put it near me den i of course SIAM.. den i step backwards.. den he say "ok dun play liao".. den he turn away.. den when i take another step backwards and wan turn away.. i fell into a pool of water.. wah lau! its the swimming pool! i dunno lor! it was too dark and i dun even noe there are swimming pools.. i tot it was big piece of land and i even planned to run around.. Zzz.. stupid.. i fell in.. everyone looked.. and everyone started laughing.. no one even cared to help pull me up -.-"
den i very embarrass lor.. so stupid can drop in.. den jj say alot thgs.. say wad i deserve it or wadever.. wah lau.. nv even say somethg gd.. den keep say say say and make everyone laugh... so idiot.. feel like killing him.. den i found tat my hp spoiled after water appear to be in the screen and everywhere -.-" tot it will be ok.. but den.. it is dead...
den i was quite sad.. new year for juz the first 20mins and i'm in this stupid thg.. Zzz.. sad my hp spoiled.. so sad already.. den jj still nt happy.. still throw me down again! with the help of others he convinced.. Zzzz... stupid! i wanna kill him tat time!!! arghh! idiot JJ! den 2nd time i gone down into the water liao he still laugh laugh laugh and continue to say alot FENG LIANG HUA.. Zzz... my hp spoil liao den he like.. "awww~" Zzzz....nv even show some pity-ness... stupid JJ.. den frm den onwards.. i damn sian liao..
den i nv slp lor.. standing infront of the aircon to hope tat my hp will eventually work.. but it nv happened.. den i was trying to put songs into hy's new ipod and trying to put video but cannot.. wah lau.. ipod very troublesome.. muz use itunes to put songs all these.. den video worst.. dowan go into details.. Zzzz
den juz now.. i damn angry also.. argue and quarrel with my mother.. at first she come into my room.. den ask me wad go cut hair tml.. (btw.. she asked this alot times today liao).. i am damn tired and i dun wish to repeat myself.. den i say i tml going out.. no time go cut.. and u noe wad? she was like "tml go cut..".. like wad i said and explained did not go into her head leh! of course i angry lah! den i raise my voice abit and say i NO TIME.. i going out whole day... den she ask where i going and blah blah.. i said go send ppl off and go queensway buy shoe.. den u noe wad? she continued.. "den afternoon after sending her off u come back liao den go cut lor!".. wth?! i already said i going out to queensway liao and its WHOLE DAY?! did she even care to listen to me or not?! this is nt the first time liao lor! everytime i say thgs.. i hav a very strong feeling tat 80% they didnt hear at all..
den she scold my hair long lor.. my father even say i am worse than a dog if i dun cut my hair.. i dun see any connection.. but den.. he juz scold like tat.. say i worse than this and tat.. wadever lah.. den my mother scold lor.. den some to another part...she scold alot lah.. den i noe next she ask me slp early and pack everythg.. even my sec sch books tat i threw one side.. and she ask me pack cuz i going to study again liao.. den ask me muz study liao.. wth?! i still in holiday mood den she ask me study liao?! den she started to scold me saying i play too much computer.. plz lah! i come back 11pm++ i use abit den haven even play any game and is less than 2hours and she say i use too much and ask me off comp?! compared to me last time using 12hours?! 2 hours is alot?! holiday and using 2 hours comp is alot?! wad shit?!
den i was like telling her tat it's holiday now and plz let me use comp and i explain to her i NO TIME TO EVEN PLAY.. but she strongly insist tat i am playing games on my computer...den i was like saying.. "ppl hav childhood.. they play frm 1 yr old to 20 yrs old.. while i must study for these 20 years non stop?! and cant even play during holidays?!".. den she scold.. say i play very long and NEVER study at ALL...den she say say say and i say say say and she suddenly say..
den she say "when did i say u cannot play?!".....den she say alot alot crap......den use another method.. say the way i tok to her very rude.. but den.. is she anyhow accuse me lor.. den say wrong thg first.. i defend for myself den i wrong le.......wad shit is this?!....den i tok back.. den she say alot thgs liao...den she see i burnt a disc.. the cyndi one.. den she start scolding...
"DUN KEEP DOING THGS FOR OTHERS LAH! U GOT NO ADVANTAGE".....den i was like "WTF?! i burn cd for myself she also wan scold me and accusing me of helpin others?!"...den i tok back lor...den she act act.. "i NEVER say u now doing for others.. i just tell u DONT do it".. "dun be an idiot to help others do thgs.. u gain nth one.. " (say until like cursing me and saying i idiot.. of course i angry lah! )....very idiot lor.. same pattern one.. alot times le...den say wad i bring so many thgs back frm others for wad.. say wad i wan waste time do thgs for others again ar.....den say wad i very stupid.. ppl hold my nose and walk
wth man?! ...as if i help ppl got wrong.. on the way and can help.. i also wrong.. i dunno how my parents thinks lah! imagine wad will they do if they noe i am burning all the discs for other ppl.. the pictures and videos.. imagine wad if they noe i spend money to buy the discs.. imagine they noe i help ppl scan photos.. imagine they noe i help ppl carry thgs.. imagine they noe i go out with ppl cuz others wan buy stuff.. i sure die... kena lock at home cannot help others and will get verbally abused..say i worse than dog or wadsoever.. i hate tat lor.. i noe they dun really mean it.. but i juz dun like it.. especially when i'm tired and i wan peace alone.. i dun like others to keep kajiao me and tok tok tok and ask me do this do tat.. very irritating sometimes.. especially when i am doing somethg i like and some ppl wan to stop me.. sian lor.. i on comp to settle alot thgs became i am PLAYING COMPUTER GAMES.. HAVING FUN.. even though i was toking to others to remain contactable or wadsoever.. also became a GAME..
this quarrel only stops when there is a blackout and i think is my father off the main switch for all the electricity,... i got more fedup cuz my comp got shut off! Zzzz.. sianz
sian lah.. i got nth else to say le.. Zzz.. but i felt guilty cuz i always nt at home this month.. cuz of work and when no work.. i always go out.. den always cannot go out with them.. haiz.. i felt guilty lor.. y my heart so soft one?! cant even deny ppl?! haiz. nvm.. i am kind and good.. dun take me for granted...thx
btw..i only slept 2 hours since 31st dec.. so.. i am dying now.. i go le.. byebye.. nitez.. and hopefully i get free repair for my phone.. but i guess my warranty will be void.. i'm in deep shit if tat happens.. i wan buy ipod and W900i! but no money -.-
pandaboo penned at 1/02/2006 12:48:00 am
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