I think i delayed this entry for very long already. pardon my poor english, i'm still in holiday mood and so i write like shit.. haha
Last sunday, i went out with my parents for dinner, and on the way back from geylang east central, my father's car pass by Maha Bodhi School, and then to Bedok North Sec. Suddenly, a feeling struck me. That feeling is suffocating me, making me so difficult to breathe that my tears filled my eyes. Memories filled my mind, mostly those happy ones.
This further reminded me of my times in kindergarden, how i 'suffered' through. My kindergarden is located very near to MI and that's why little little bits of memories came back to me when i go to MI everyday in the first 2 months. I remembered i was not treated fairly in there. The teachers are biased against me, just because i am not as cute as the other classmates. I remembered i was scolded for not drinking the vegetable soup as i hate vegetables that time. But i clearly remembered i asked for the 'black sauce' or soup that i love to dip my bread in, but i got the vegetable soup instead. I do not want to drink the soup and so i cried, the teachers never do anything but scolded me, forced me to drink or else i will stand there and cannot go anywhere. Others go to sleep, while i continue to cry there. I cry until the end of the day, until my parents come and fetch me home.
I still remember my english also sucks. I always never learn the 10 spelling words and always get a 0. Until the english teacher hates me. I remember that time, my parents treat the kindergarden very well. I think my father pay the principal to accept me in the kindergarden. At that time, the economy quite good, so my parents spent a lot on this kind of thg -.-"
I still remember one time, it was my birthday and my parents bought a very very big donald duck cake for the whole kindergarden children to share. See, i am the only one that have that. Give them cakes, they still don't treat me well.. idiots.. And at K2, 2 computers came in sometime before the end of the year, and i only touched the computer ONCE. Everyone is snatching to play the games in the computer. AND, i was not given a chance everytime. I hate the teachers there.
Leaving the kindergarden to MBS, i didn't feel anything, because i still don't know these thgs yet la.. haha.. In primary school, everything is the same till P4 when i start to understand things. I know teachers also don't like me from p1 to 4, because my results are poor and i am quite playful. Mixed with teck hua that time, play play all the way.. haha..had lots of fun.
In P4 i think, i joined wushu. I love that cca! i love the ppl there. I joined the CCA quite late, being blur blur in there. But i trained, and almost became the 2nd leader there. Although there are ppl that knows more thgs than me, but i remembered i am one of the better ones among the new ppl.. haha. So i start to mix with the better ones like Paksun, guanjie, yijie, wenyao. We had lots of fun together. We were asked to join some peformance in P5 i think, and we go to trainings together, having fun playing around, exploring the sch at night..cuz the trainnings usually till 9+pm. I only quit wushu because i was so ashamed that i did badly in one national wushu competition. i felt so embarrassed tat i dint wan to see the others again..or shld i say i hav no face to go see my coach. and so, i get less involved in wushu in P6 and i joined some clubs like computer club, sci club, shu fa.. somethg like tat lah.. forget already. I start to focus on my studies more. Even tough i thought i will get 180+ for my PSLE cuz my prelims got 182 only.
PSLE shows that i got 219 and i got posted to BNSS. And so, i said bye to my pri sch frens. I thought that's the end of me already. BNSS to me is a very bad school with lots of bad students like ah bengs and ah lians and those malays that bully ppl. I am so lonely in sec 1 and its the first time i study together in a same class room with malays. My chinese standard dropped from A to E becuz i slacked. I am unable to concentrate in the class as the way of teaching is so different frm my pri school. I start to miss my pri sch life, and i go back to MBS almost every event days. I love the free dental service there, i love the food there. The grass there also seems greener.
I miss my pri sch, i miss all my classmates, and i miss wushu more. I had a wonderful time in wushu. And surprisingly.. i met my wushu coach in bnss, she asked me to join cuz the standards of the others in bnss wushu really suxs. i rejected her, i still felt ashame that i lost the competition. Cuz tats the first national competition i joined and somehow the scar is still there. I joined NPCC and somehow got invloved in robotics. Robotics ppl are quite nice..i had fun there also. Until i found that robotics consumed too much time. I had to stay back everyday for my robotics and my parents aren't happy about it. And i found that my team, i do most of the programming work and i don't like others to give me do everythg and blame only me when thgs dun work the way we want. When i show intentions to the the teacher-in-charge that i want to quit, he got so angry and starting to scold me, saying that if i quit robotics and go study, i will still not score well. he says that i will never ever get into the best class with the grades i having that time. and one time common test.. he even asked me to plan the program of the robot after i finished my english paper. in the exam hall! i finished the paper 1 hour before the end of the exam mah.. den he asked me to program! idiot..
and he says i do so fast for my english.. i sure fail one.. but heng.. i passed the paper.. and i showed him i got into the best class. i think i also tyco got in one..but at least i get in =)
my real life only starts in mid sec 3 when we have outings all that.. the class spirit seems to be quite strong.. although there are still ppl quite anti-social and only study study study..is like tat one lah.. best class sure got some very hardworking ppl. But in this class... i learnt alot of thgs.. u guys taught me lots of thgs.. u guys taught me how to have fun.. how to GET A LIFE! hahaha.. yup.. we study we play and we score! sec 3 and 4 are the 2 years that i finally realise y ppl had fun going out together to watch movie.. occupying the whole row of seats.. and do stupid stuffs and tok loudly in the public and had fun sabo-ing each other.. hahahah!
we had lots of fun.. but we also make sure our studies are nt affected.. we study together.. formed study grps.. all these.. and now.. indeed.. we did very well for this o lvls! congrats everyone! our last big event was the prom nite. it was very fun and only our class hav.. so nice to have all of u guys to organise this event. but sadly.. after prom nite.. everyone started to get separated becuz of our different aims for future..but i believe our hearts are still connected together.. i dun expect anyone to forget anyone in class 4E'05..
I dont feel so bad until i come to tpjc.. when i noe no one in my class.. i started to hav the lonely feeling.. and den.. i started to miss my frens.. nt just my Class 4E frens.. they include my pri sch frens.. my wushu frens.. my NPCC frens.. my MP frens.. and ppl like biondi in other class also.. i try to keep in contact with everyone now.. and complain how sucky i am in tpjc.. hahaha
I really miss those good old days.. i wan to go back the times.. i dun mind taking those exams again.. but i wan to be with u all again!
mayb i will find my tpjc quite nice also.. i nv noe.. it's still the 2nd week in tpjc.. lets see how.. but i will never forget all of u.. i will never forget these gd times again.. ahhh! i miss all of u! haiz.. i finally experience this kind of thg.. i nv really part with ppl before.. this time.. some ppl fly to other country and some nt cmoing back liao.. it's as gd as nt seeing them anymore liao.. haiz..
I miss you all!!! *i feel so much like some girl who write all these miss miss thgy -.-" *
pandaboo penned at 3/31/2006 10:52:00 pm
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shit man! i'm sick and tired of sch already! its juz the 2nd week of sch and i am feeling so tired.. as i said in previous posts.. I GOT DAMN ALOT HW! mayb nt considered alot for u all.. but alot for me! phy tutorials + experiment.. the experiment nt so easy.. only got the qn paper and one blank sheet of paper when i hav to write everythg.. draw the table.. plot the graph.. find the gradient and explain y the graph is like tat.. i hav totally no experience in doing tat and now ask me do?! i dun even noe how to write for the "anomalous data" thgy! how to even start?! wtf man phys.. phys teacher tot we noe everythg juz becuz there are more 1st 2 mths students.. den he is so fast tat i cant even catch up! arghh~
econs.. hav to do some news cutting shit.. nt on wadever news.. but economics related! wad company sell this sell tat.. den wad decision to buy over wad company.. den muz determine it's micro or macro wadever.. wtf man?! as if i noe wads micro macro like tat..
chem.. ahh shit it la.. my worst subject.. also going damn fast.. stupid atom inside still got wad orbitals.. electronics configuration writing style also change.. frm 2,8,8,8 to now wad 1s^2 , 2s^2, 2p^6, and so on.. damn long.. den muz memories wad ionisation thgy.. wah lau eh.. how sia...
maths.. idiot.. tat teacher think we all genius.. go so fast and keep saying tat if we listen.. we sure can folo.. but she so fast! she press on the calculator much faster than us lor.. she solve liao we still finding the keys on the calculator..
gp.. dun say liao.. C6.. kns lah.. my eng worst in the C6 class grp also...
chinese.. my grp ppl all very anti-chinese. make me also feel so anti.. but they anti right.. still remember alot chinese words leh! when writing compo.. ask them wad how to write.. they mostly will noe de.. can also come out wad descriptive phrases to describe some situation.. damn pro..
PW.. suxs.. got totally no idea how to do... no help at all.. cuz everyone also dunno
and now alot hw! and everyday reach home at 5pm.. wah damn tired.. usually i will slp till 8pm.. eat liao will feel damn sian.. online chat chat like today till now.. den take a look around me.. saw cds of games.. make me miss my games so much.. those loner games like RCT and SimCity4 i also wan play! but i dun even hav time to listen to songs... how to play?! haiz.. i think i am seriously lagging behind.. help ahh~ who can giv me a pull?
My quote of yesterday : "gonna pia this 2 years ahh!!"
My quote of the day : "sian ah! i miss my games!"
My quote of tomorrow : "make use of the times in tpjc and appreciate it"
pandaboo penned at 3/27/2006 10:40:00 pm
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sianz.. this is a damn bo liao post.. i got nth better to do.. today went out with ky and bio actually to buy a bag.. but den i am very indecisive and hence i dint noe whether i shld choose a sling bag or a backpack.. in the end nv buy -.-"
went to suntec walk walk.. and bought a wallet.. the surface is not those smooth smooth one i like.. but under the influence of BIONDI, keep saying tat wallet is gd.. and looking at the price of only $26...which is damn cheap compared to others in the wallet shop... i bought it.. and PLUS using the discount voucher tat ky gave me.. thanks!.. after putting in all my useless cards and all tat.. my wallet became damn thick and cant close at all.. lolx.. nvm lah.. but i also saw another wallet quite nice.. having the words "sure, watevr" on it.. quite nice.. but den tat bio keep pysco me buy the other one...
ok.. den i damn sian.. my other frens were at marina square having their dinner.. i ate alot already and so i nv go join them.. i also cant ps biondi mah.. =)
den went home.. so tired.. rested quite long.. thinking on wad faculty i wan to take in the uni.. and wad cca i wan to join.. suddenly i feel like staying in squash.. juz becuz its a sports.. which my mother says.. its gd for releasing stress.. but i also feel like trying rock climbing and wushu leh.. i think tue i mayb go try try wushu.. see how is it..
haiz..also under the influence of bio.. i think tat aerospace electronics nt bad sia -.-".. haiz.. but feel like going tourism or hotel management thgy.. but uni dun hav.. Zzz.. u all may say go business.. but business.. abit sian leh..
"A smile is an international language that means welcoming you."
pandaboo penned at 3/26/2006 12:37:00 am
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today can be considered my first day of sch.. my CG is out.. CG means civics group.. like class like tat lah.. yah.. i am in 06S19.. i tot the whole boring time in my OG will end here and i can make new frens and enjoy more.. and mayb i can hav a more lively class...
and yes.. my class is quite lively.. the guys are juz some jokers.. and i found tat they already knew each other! tats y they chat until so happily.. while i noe no one in the class.. i sit alone beside.. damn sian.. finally understand how daniel felt in his first week in nyjc... sitting alone in class.. in lectures.. wah sianz! den the teachers.. they like noe all of them liao.. den tok tok tok in a gang like tat.. den me.. quietly sit there.. even i say hello liao.. den after tat nth to say liao.. sianzz
my class.. i think only got less than 5 out of 26ppl are new comers to the sch lor.. i belong to the 5.. and only got 5 girls.. and some of them wans to appeal to change class... and 3 ppl in my class are china scholars coming in to join the sch for 10weeks den go NTU liao.. sianz.. if this continues.. the ppl are in their own gangs and their bonds are so stong tat i wont be able to join in.. and i will sure get bored in this 2 years.. this suxs..
and now.. i feel like changing to geog again.. reason? econs seems quite boring to me and tehe only reason i taking is is cuz i juz wan to noe more abt it and feel tat it will be useful in the future in the business sector... but i dunno.. i may nt be taking business in uni also.. and i feel tat econs are more useful if i wan to be a economist to analyse this and tat for the company.. i hav totally no interest in tat.. and after hearing reasons of y ppl wan take econs.. no gd reasons really let me consider econs again.. alot ppl in my class feel tat they hav no interest in other humanities subject like geog hist all these.. tats y choose econs to try try.. wtf man.. everyone try try.. -.-"
or else others all THINK tat econs involves money.. so its fun -.-"
ok.. tats the econs part.. for geog part.. i feel tat it is more interesting and i hav some interest in it.. i dun mind getting to noe the world.. the map.. and all abt those tourism stuff.. i find it quite interesting.. i may wan to work in tourism industry =\ nt sure.. but i wan be a businessman.. but i no capital and so i dunno how... and the thg is.. as wad everyone noes.. if i hav interest in somethg.. i will sure do well for it.. i cannot confirm i will do very well.. but at least i got some confidence now.. much better than econs.. which tok abt opportuinty cost and scarcity all tat.. damn sianz.. and its like alot economics term and english is very important for this subject.. Zzz
ok now.. can anyone advise me whether i shld take econs or geog?? sianz.. now only the first day.. i already felt the strong stress coming at me liao.. hw start to stack up.. frm chem phy econs all these and even GP.. next week gonna hav a quiz tat will be counted in CA liao.. wah lau.. so fast.. we really hav to noe everythg in the world for GP sia.. i now very scare.. sianz.. and for chem phy econs all these.. so fast go into real work liao.. and i haven even do revision.. i got lots of thgs i dunno.. but i dunno i can ask who.. cuz i noe no one in my class... nt close to them.. abit sianz.. den abit difficult to ask.. haiz.. i will try to make frens lah.. but den they are like in their own grps already.. wanna add in.. nt so easy -.-"
ohok.. enough of tpjc.. now tok abt the past few days.. yup.. last fri i went for my fren's chalet.. but last min say the bbq is changed to sat.. so me and biondi stayed one night there.. we went escape theme park tat morning.. stupidly.. there are 5 rides tat are closed.. but we still go in.. tried most of the rides one time.. cuz we dun hav the time to try more.. cuz queuing up already takes more than 30mins for each ride! idiot lor.. den tat night.. my fren's bro and his frens also stayed.. we played card game the whole night till 6am den we slp.. stupid thg la.. my fren nv bring any chess or wadsoever.. only brought scrabble and poker cards.. Zzz.. den no bbq and no everythg.. wah sianz lor.. heng his bro got bring chess or somethg.. den actually wanted to rent bike.. but the shop close liao..
den midnight wan to go play LAN.. den my fren kwan yong disagreed.. he say it is too expensive.. but den.. of course lah! downtown east leh! the price sure like tat one.. and ohya.. evening time we went to play bowling.. omg.. my bowling skills suxs and i think i injure my hand..now like ache like tat..
ok.. 6am.. they went to slp and me and biondi got no more space to slp liao.. kwanyong's bro got too many frens liao.. so.. me and biondi took bus 21 home.. i slept on the bus =\ .. when i reach home.. i immediately fell asleep.. damn tired lor..
den woke at 11am.. went to marina square and suntec to buy bag.. in the end.. biondi and his frens all bought new bags.. they no need consider sia! they see they buy.. wah lau rich.. den they bought lor.. biondi recieve it as his bd present.. haha.... yah.. den actually they wan go kenneth hse to play mahjiong.. but me suggest tat me and biondi go back to chalet to help with the bbq thgy first..
omg.. the bbq really screw up.. i think the organiser really first time.. my fren's mother put Alumminium foil on the metal 'grill' (dunno correct or not).. covering the whole thg lor.. den put on the bbq pit.. omg.. there is no air flow for the charcol at all! white ashes cover the charcol instead.. even though the fire is nicely set up.. no use.. in the end all become white.. den i say cannot like tat cover.. my fren at first disagree with me.. until we tried putting otah and satay on it.. 10mins and it's nt cooked yet.. haha.. and u all noe wad?! the brought plates.. ONE SINGLE packet.. and the plate is nt those paper plate tat is as big as normal plate... it is those plastic plates tat hav the diameter of a small bowl -.-" damn small lor.. and my fren argue tat it is enough.. den argue till his mother go buy the paper plates back.. abit bu shuang lah.. haha.. but nvm lah.. cuz tats the way! everyone else use tat! we cannot survive with the damn small plate.. put one chicken wing den no space liao..
den we cook cook cook.. idiot lor.. cook alot den my fren's uncle juz come take take take and say for the children.. in the end they also got eat.. den they put butter/margarine ont he satays which are already oily enough -.-" wtf.. so unhealthy.. nvm.. den they take take take till we realise we nt enough liao..
and in the end.. like usual.. we ate a little only -.-".. and there are much more thgs tat happen lah.. lazy to type everythg out.. now i damn sian liao.. in 7 more hours and i going sch again.. shit man.. i better go get some slp.. haiz..
pandaboo penned at 3/20/2006 08:31:00 pm
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today woke up the earliest since my primary 6.. except for special events tat i hav to wake up at 5+ la.. but today earliest to wake up and go sch liao.. i slept at 1.30am this morning leh.. but i woke at 6am.. woo~ tot i finally wont be late for the 'meeting up' before we go to sch.. den happily go down..
we supposed to meet at 6.45am everyday den take bus to tpjc.. but last week.. 4 days me and kc are late.. first 2 times we manage to go to sch on time cuz we take bus no. 8 =) .. den today 6.40am reach.. no one at all -.-" den wait.. 6.45am like tat hafidz came.. den i think.. bus sure coming liao.. den.. 6.50am.. bus 21 came.. wynne and kc still nt here.. i wonder.. wah.. wynne will late one meh? den i sms kc.. den he say wad 7.40 den start lecture.. he still at home -.-"... but den.. i online see the webby.. they write got flag rasising all tat leh.. assembly also.. at 7.30am leh..
den sms wynne.. she also like tat say.. den say she in sch see.. the liquid away the assembly column liao.. -.-".. den too bad lor.. i wait till 7.10 till kc come.. den rush for no. 8.. but nv late la.. but tat kc! go sch stomachache again! go the toilet 10mins -.-" den we late for lecture.. maths lecture.. dunno y.. it's damn full in the lecture theater! ppl sit on the stairs leh! so me and kc also hav to lo.. den at the side someomre.. damn sianz...sit liao also nt comfortable..
yaya.. tats all for the lectures today.. and today went to marina square with kwanyong and biondi to buy my headset.. hehe.. cuz ky got creative card.. den got rebate somemore.. so it only cost me $45.. u all may think i crazy.. ya.. i am somehow crazy when buying IT sutffs.. dun blame me.. cannot control sia.. ehhe.. plz dun shoot me for tat -.-
and now i am damn busy.. alot of thgs ahh~ ppl calling me.. asking me thgs.. den msn alot ppl toking to me.. ask me stupid qns like bio bought wad laptop.. how much is it in sim lim and how much he bought and wad gifts he got.. wtf?! how i noe sia! go ask biondi lah! Zzz.. den ky ask me blog thg.. ok.. i can help.. but the music part i also nt so sure.. denhe keep ask me try.. when he call me.. den victor call me say wan tickets.. last time he say he no more tickets and dowan care those who wans liao lor.. now he says he wans the ticket frm me.. wad sia.. i was going to sell to biondi liao den now he wans.. make me difficult position.. den ppl keep ask me tml wad time meet all these.. i nt setting lor! den i dunno.. y ask me! den ask me where is the singapore conference hall.. as if i noe like tat.. den i hav to purposely go google and find it den giv them the link to see... wad sia.. den i was writing blog at tat time also.. den i was toking to daniel also.. den he ask me send him songs.. Zzzzz.. den i hav to find all these.. wah lau.. alot thgs lor..
my internet is crawling.. my phone is ringing.. my parents are shouting.. my msn is blinking.. my music is playing.. my brain is thinking.. my hands are typing as fast as possible.. and i am shivering in my aircon room with fan on..
sianzz.. den now finally settle everythg liao.. and when my mind is on fire juz now.. jj suddenly nt happy and leave the conver.. wad sia! i only calling the ppl going for the band concert to come early cuz of alot crowd going to watch.. and instructed by victor tat we muz go early.. wad sia.. i am juz carrying out 'instructions' den jj bu shuang den say he nt going liao.. wad sia.. i also said "sry i was on fire" den sound abit crazy.. but den.. he say he dunno how to go.. i also ask him call us liao.. wad i done wrong?! TELL ME WAD?! i do so much for u all?! wad i get?! bu shuang den leave conver.. i HATE ppl leaving conversation for no reason.. and acting dao or zuai or wadever shit.. to a certian extent i can stand! but dun overboard!! idiot.. i now suddenly damn hot lah! Zzzz.. help some of u all so much.. when u all got really thankful one?! mayb sometimes i sound sucky lah! but den.. i still do it wad! making trips to ppl hse to do thgs.. wad i get?! Zzz...
fedup lah! craps!... sorry abit too siao.. but.. i juz cant stand it.. sianz....~~~
pandaboo penned at 3/13/2006 10:40:00 pm
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went to nyjc again on wed.. last day of the submission of the appeal forms.. the decision to go there again to find the media club teacher was very last min...the day before.. which is the day when i submit the form.. i tell myself tat i juz submit and wait liao.. nt gonna do anymore thgs..
and on the point of submission of the form.. or shld i say.. after the submission.. i feel like i juz released a burden.. so shiok.. but on tat night.. daniel tell me to go find the teacher to increase my chances.. den he say he can help me find the teacher.. den say say say den influenced me lah.. den next day.. my time table abit sucky.. quite alot of breaks.. but whole day only 3 lecture.. den 2pm got cca exibition and sign up de.. 10am i wan go out to ny liao.. but they quite strict.. so.. cant sneak out lor..
den kc say he got trial also.. den in cca exibition.. i signed up for shooting club.. still got trial.. but i dunno when.. they also nv call or put on the net... dun seems fun.. haha.. kc went for the badminton adn basketball trial.. siao.. go rock climbing liao den go basketball den go badminton.. Zzzz
but as wad everyone says.. TPJC is a slackers' sch.. of course got lots of slackers.. few of my frens all wan choose those cca tat has the least training or meeting days.. those tat go there slack one is the best... those tat go there take attendance and go home one better still.. this again giv me a bad impression of TPJCians.. whereas compared to other jc? for me.. tat time went nyjc.. the JC2 hav cheers,performance and do wadever to make u join their club.. and i think ppl join becuz it's fun.. and nt becuz it's easy...TPJC.. the JC2 ppl sit there wait for u sign up.. den some shout join join nia...
yup.. my perception changed (cant think of any other word, correct me if i'm wrong).. i now wans to join CCA to make my life in JC more wonderful.. i wan to make more frens.. i wan to make sure i dun get stressed out by A lvl work.. i wan to make cca the activity tat i will look forward to.. last time yes.. i may wan to quit all cca and juz dun get involve in anythg.. but in pri.. the wushu cca really giv me a sense of belonging to the grp of wushu ppl.. we are united.. in secondary.. mayb cuz of too much work and too much contribution to cca.. i got tired.. especially for robotics..
but until i joined media club.. i found tat it is quite fun.. i get to stay in aircon room and treat the com lab as our terretories.. we discuss thgs there.. we plan for projects.. we play in there.. we use the comps to play games.. we simply juz abused the facilities in the lab.. we eat in the lab.. everythg.. these bring back my old memories.. hmm~.. and also we hav a friendly teacher in charge..
yup.. i spent lots of time in my media club projects.. but i somehow enjoyed it.. unless sometimes when i'm damn busy but i still must to finish some video projects.. and tat suxs.. haha... i'm so happy i am in this kind of cca... and NOT in the chess club..i recieved this kind of experience..and let me realise tat i enjoyed working.. nt slacking... but yup in NPCC.. weirdly.. we got nth to do.. so.. go slack lor.. haha.. we want do thgs.. but there isn't anythg..
and now came into JC.. my objective to find a CCA is to make frens and wadsoever i mentioned juz now.. i'm finding a cca tat hav fun ppl.. tat dun slack.. tat is sporty and will socialise with others one.. i nv seen any cca tat meet my requirement yet.. except student council.. but difficult to get in lah..
other cca i nt very sure.. so.. i joined shooting.. trying out the cca.. cuz i think it looks cool... haha.. wanted to carry on IT in the IT AVA FILM club.. but when i approach the guy at the booth.. his response turned me down.. so.. forget it.. further more.. the cca time clashes with shooting...
now looking at wushu.. nt sure they friendly or not leh.. feel like joining.. but abit dun dare.. haha.. mayb i will join.. see how =)
but i hope everyone can really enjoy making new frens.. today got mass dance.. sadly its juz 40mins.. frm knowing nth.. we muz learn somethg within tat 40mins.. tats very tough.. firstly.. they show us the dance.. and some ppl sian liao..some ran away.. but when i watching.. quite nice wad.. although nt as nice as tjc one =
den.. when they ask us to get a partner.. how?! i mean.. the girls stick together.. den most of them partner with another girl.. u all shld noe.. girl girl partner can.. but guy guy.. NO WAY! haha.. and cuz my OG ppl also nt very enthu or supportive or cooperative one.. and lots of guys also stick in a bunch.. i also folo them lor.. stand there and watch.. haiz.. how i wish i can be in the dance.. sure enjoy it one.. done it in MI.. quite fun.. so i stood aside.. saw some ppl really HIGH.. dance till so happy.. envy.. but i can do nth.. haha.. the organisation of the orientation suxs lah.. they shld force ppl into 2 rows.. den partner them like wad we did in MI.. or else.. ppl wont notice/get into the fun.. especially those nv go into any institute in first 2 mths..they wont understand how fun is mass dance =) .. this orientation 2.. is a complete failure.. ppl already complaining in the tpjc forum liao.. haha.. but mass dance is one of the activities tat will bond us together as one.. dancing the same thg.. ok wad.. =X
yup.. there's actually nth wrong to be enthu and participate in this and tat mah.. now i wish i can join lots of cca again and make alot frens.. now i keep sticking to same grp of fren.. abit nt very nice.. kk nvm.. skip this
ok.. today attended the official first chem lecture.. and i tell myself.. "i made the wrong choice to take chemistry"..it's nt the subject's fault.. it's the teacher again.. the teacher tok like 'bu shuang' like tat.. like giving me an impression : "u wan come den come.. dowan den leave.. i am nt interested in teaching.. juz drag thru the lesson".. and she also seems to hav totally NO interest in teaching..
no sense of humour.. mayb sometimes she wans make some lame joke.. but TOTALLY dun sound funny at all.. no one can even notice it's a joke unless got ppl like me... go think and imagine wad if tat lame sentence came out frm another teacher's mouth, tat will sure hav a better effect...
she juz seems to be like some rebellious student making a presentation on chemistry..i wonder how she passed NIE -.-"
phy was quite ok.. attended the lecture on thur.. it's nt the teacher's fault this time.. it's the subject tat is naturally boring.. but at least.. the teacher noes when we will fall asleep.. and so in the slide show.. added some cartoon and giv a little funny effect to make some of us feel abit more awake.. haha.. at least some effort....
geog teacher rox! strict but in her lecture is juz so.. relaxed.. i regret nt taking geog.. haiz.. econs i nv attend before.. so i dunno.. chinese was quite ok.. at least the china teacher got some sense of humour.. haha
shit.. haven finish my nyjc thgy.. ohya.. so i wait until 4pm when kc go for his badminton trial.. den i say i going nyjc.. kc obviously looked very bu shuang.. but no choice.. daniel and weijie is already waiting for me there.. and daniel i spent the whole day looking for the teacher.. cannot let his efforts get wasted.. and yah.. 4pm leave.. i will reach at 5pm.. so.. no choice.. spent $10 on taxi there to make sure i reach before 4.15pm.. went there.. tok to the teacher in charge of the NANYANG NEWS cca.. the teacher very dao.. ask him go one side tok he dowan.. ( cuz they were having cca exibition as well.. he is setting up the video cam).. den say "tok lor..".. den no choice.. i say i am appealling and blah blah blah.. den he ask wads my first choice.. den say i nv put ny.. he says gd luck to me while tapping on my shoulder.. sianz.. wanna ask more.. he say very little chance.. den heck la.. i go liao.. den went home after tat.. stupid trip down to nyjc.. Zzz
den recieved the news tat kc lost his wallet.. wah lau.. den i remembered he mayb left it in the toilet.. till now still nt found.. sianz.. bad impression on tpjcians again.. the TPJCian spirit is also nt as strong as other JCs.. VJC is the best i think.. but NYJC is better than TPJC.. sianzz.. i wan to be enthu.. and i also wan to meet ppl who are enthu and dun mind participating in all these cheers and dance one.. haiz.. wish i hav better luck next time.. giv me a gd CG!!
lolx.. i am demanding alot hor..? and i recently read a blog on a 1st 2mths tjc person's blog.. she's now in nyjc and she says she hates it.. and she miss tjc.. and the way she describe the tjc ppl.. wah lau.. like so nice..so touching.. btw.. my fren is same CG with her.. tats y got the blog.. read it if u all wan... its all in chinese btw..
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pandaboo penned at 3/10/2006 11:54:00 pm
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today pon my GP lecture and went nyjc to appeal.. on the way.. me and kc got into a dilemma.. dunno wan appeal or not.. me.. i wan to appeal for sure.. but nt sure arts or sci... cuz if he get in and i dont.. i will be damn heart pain...den after much consideration.. even until i reached nyjc.....
i saw weijie there.. he appealled.. he says he noes the conductor there.. and daniel tell me he got very high chance of getting in.. den we went canteen.. to think and to hav lunch.. den.. weijie recieved a phone call.. its frm the nyjc office.. says his appeal got accepted.. he went to the office and came back with a transfer form.. wah.. den i look at the letter.. and zoom in to the nyjc stamp...
i cant explain my feeling at tat moment.. dunno is envy or wad? i just got stuck.. den i hav a feeling.. wah lau! he like tat also can get in! so fast somemore! den i heck liao.. just go apply sci.. den i fill in the form.. staple the documents and handed in.. after tat.. realised i wrote the wrong date cuz of my watch nv set properly.. den... ahya.. submit liao.. wad can i do?..
den looking at kc.. he was damn confused.. whether he wans to submit or not.. cuz if he submit and use his cca.. as a sch team player.. he got high chance of getting in.. but if he get in.. den fish will be left alone if i also get in.. den he tot of alot stuffs lah.. den in the end.. he also heck care.. juz fill in the thg.. den submit in liao we left..
dunno y.. my mood is nt very gd.. dunno cuz i envy weijie or wad.. but it's quite unbelievable tat in just 1 hour.. he got accepted.. he got 18 points raw score for his o lvl.. 2 points more than me.. but considering he got B3 for english.. i noe my chance of getting in will nt be as high as him.. cuz.. most schs look at english grade first.. so now.. i will just wait for their call.. and hope there is.. and of course i hope i can get in..
but if i cant get in.. actually i am ok with it.. BUT after seeing weijie gone in already and i dun get in.. i might be damn sad.. dunno la.. will keep u all updated...
pandaboo penned at 3/07/2006 05:25:00 pm
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haiz.. long time nv blog.. den now blog.. is another period of confusion or wadever shit... i got posted to TPJC..it's my 2nd choice after MJC.. and cuz i noe i cant get into NYJC.. i put it as third.. juz in case i wan to appeal.. at least the sch is in my list.. haha
ok.. TPJC.. when i heard of it last wed when there was a leak in the moe website, i was quite disappointed for dunno wad reason.. tpjc is juz fine and y i dun like it? cuz of the old sch? nt so old also wad.. but i think cuz of the name? like neighbourhood sch like tat.. ok nvm.. i heard tat the ppl there are friendly.. so.. attended my first day in tpjc.. errr.. the feeling of going into the jc was great.. until i reach the hall.. everythg seems to be unorganised.. there are 28 orientation grps which we called OG.. and the JC2 ppl on the stage keep asking us to go into our OG grps... when we dunno where to go at all.. den they say.. OG 1-13 at my right and 14-28 on my left.. k den we move.. but den they change.. OG 1-14 on my left and OG 15-28 on my right... den change direction again.. wth lor!
den ok nvm.. we go into the SIDES.. but.. 14 grps.. how do we noe where is my grp? den we wait wait wait and the JC2 ppl keep annoucing and the teachers shouting.. but they dint noe the problem for it.. no label for where shld the OGs go at all! ok.. den slowly.. i saw a small little piece of paper writing "OG 20" in pencil coming up.. den i moved there.. den.. followed by other OGs.. den everyone starts to settle down... ok tats gd
but den.. we wait wait wait wait till abt 9am.. den got the principal tok.. ahh some crap.. den the ang moh gp HOD tok.. damn slow and like he got nth else to say.. think very long den say.. den going thru the time table.. EH! plz lah! we hav the time tables with us! go thru for wad?! as if we cannot read like tat.. Zzzz.. complete waste of time..
den we go for our break.. ya.. one thg commentable is the food there... its nice.. but the sitting arrangements like in hawker centre like tat -.-"
ok la.. den after break.. we went back to the hall for some ice breaking games.. nth much.. always the same thg... den we went for a tour around the college.. omg.. i will really get lost man.. it's nt big.. but confusing.. the whole building structure is a triangle.. the same as their crest or logo or wadever.. and the building is nt very old compared to MI but nt very new compared to mayb MJC..
ok.. but the feeling i got for going tpjc.. is slack...i dun get the motivation force to study or wadsoever.. ok.. this is the reason i juz realised few mins ago when i am considering nyjc and trying to come out reasons why i prefer nyjc.. now i noe =)
and today i went nyjc to get a feel of it.. and actually wanted to submit the appeal form liao.. but.. *read below*.. ok.. when i saw the building.. i felt happy.. so new so nice and on the hill like tat.. so the high.. den walk in.. wow.. so new! and the feeling.. shiok.. saw nyjc ppl studying there.. giv me the feeling of really willing to study and i dun mind studying the whole day in tat sch.. and omg.. seems like my dream sch.. so big and nice and got lifts to the 5th floor! woo.. shiok.. and got TVs around to show the latest events or wadsoever.. and they say.. the annoucements and notes all will be on the website.. time tables also.. wah.. so high tech.. tats wad i want man! haha.. so attracted to it.. they says the uniform suxs.. but i prefer brown to the light green in tpjc.. dunno for wad reason.. in NYJC.. most ppl speak in english more often.. whereas tpjc.. saw more chinese background ppl.. haha..
the toilets in NYJC are nice.. new and clean.. but the prob is.. the one i go.. got 2 doors no lock -.-" spoilt.. haha.. but nvm.. and the ppl there? still got some ah beng like ppl making noise in lib.. i think there are frm some gd schs and so childish.. u noe y i say tat? cuz last time robotics.. i saw sec3 RI ppl playing with soft toys! throwing the toy around the room! with ppl watching.. they dun care.. den act as if they are so superior.. i hate them...k...den...
yup.. i want to appeal for NYJC after much thoughts and my fren says can take 2 H2 sci subject in arts stream.. so.. i think i can get into the arts stream.. at least try.. or mayb use my CCA.. but den.. when i went NYJC.. kc told me.. mrs khoo also told me.. H2 geog is nt easy.. and require strong language background or somethg like tat... but den.. this makes me think very long.. it's nt becuz i wan to come NYJC and so i choose geog.. it's cuz i already like geog since sec 1.. and den now i got an A1 for my comb human... this make me more confident to take geog in A lvl..
but den.. ppl say.. i did not take pure geog in sec.. it will be difficult for me.. my english is nt gd.. will also be difficult for me.. and my A1 in comb hum. may also be tyco one.. sianzzz
this make me think twice again...haiz.. y i nv take pure geog in sec?! cuz they dun offer! and also make me think.. y i nv take higher chinese?! minus 2 more points! cuz? cuz i nv do well for chinese in sec and they nv say got! nvm la.. blame myself too slack in sec 1 and 2.. =(
and also y i nv do better in prelims to get into a jc! can minus 2 more points also! wad sia.. Zzzz... all my fault.. sianz.. and y i nv study more and get better results for o lvl?! den can also hav more choices of jc!
ok.. tats nt the prob now.. the prob is.. shld i appeal for sci or arts? (say until as if i will get in).. but at least try lo.. if nv get in then will make me "si xin" or giv up lor.. giv up on nyjc... but if lucky get in.. den its better lor...i gonna use CCA.. but den.. MEDIA club.. dunno can or not.. i think most JCs prefer sports cca.. like very easily get in with sports leh.. but media club? i dunno leh.. i noe no one in NYJC to help me find out also.. no support.. no adviser.. Nothing.
but after whole day of thinking and considering and reconsidering.. i think i wont go for arts.. i'm scared to forgo chem for geog.. although university looks at grades rather than subjects.. but den.. i am nt sure! teachers and frens all says chem is very important.. so... my preferred combi of phy maths geog and econs will be totally useless.. haiz.. but i dun really hav much interest in chem.. i'm scared i cant do well.. how?! no one to advise.. but i totally agree with wad daniel said.. if i hav the interest for it.. i shld do well for it...
but everyone seems to say tat it is difficult.. wad makes me hav the guts to try? nvm.. i will just go for sci.. and hope i will get in to the very new environment.. but i hav little confidence in getting in there.. and also tot of having done so much for non-academic stuffs.. i shld now make use of wad i got.. am i right? dun waste my gold awards.. dun waste my colours award title..so.. juz the little confidence tat makes me go for it
I'm really thankful to Mr Beh who helped me so much and giv me the opportunity to join these competitions and won so many awards. It's actually him that helped us win, we students done nth much. His guidance lead us to success in those competitions.. haha.. ok.. also thank him for my colours award!! nv really thank him in real cuz i dun really noe how to express myself.. haha.. thanks.. and yup.. these are the awards i gonna use to chiong my way to nyjc!
if i get in NYJC..... then..... *ahya... get in liao den say*
pandaboo penned at 3/06/2006 10:52:00 pm
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