arghh~ this suxs this suxs.. i am now trying very hard to study.. study and mug.. but i juz get so tired.. i came home at 6pm.. lie down awhile and i fell asleep.. tml.. or shld i say 8 hours later.. i will hav my econs test.. on the topics which i noe nth...wad market effiency and externalities.. i am so dead.. i cant find any notes for market effiency and the slides.. there are so many slides tat i dunno where to start!
and somemore.. the slides use alot of short forms.. wad MSC MPC or wadever.. i think it is said in class but i dint really paying attention cuz she is going so fast and there is so many new terms tat i cant catch up..
i feel so helpless.. i ask my classmate abt the effiency notes.. and i guess i am too iriitating and he went offline -.-" .. nvm bah.. sad.. now i am stuck here.. dunno how to start.. where to start.. i really feel like going poly.. and my fren shoot me.. saying tat becuz of this and i wan to go poly.. i am such a loser.. yeah i noe.. but the pace here is so fast.. i am afraid i cant catch up..
i din go to sch ytd.. and i felt so left out.. so left behind.. i dunno wads going on at all.. i am juz like being off the track.. how? am i able to get back onto the track? it's night time now.. midnight to be exact.. it is the most peaceful moments.. it is very quiet.. i now only can hear the sounds frm the winding fans of my CPU and the engine of my aircon... and the sound of my keyboard when i type.. nth else.. everythg is so peaceful.. i dun see ppl busy doing their stuffs and hence the stress lvl decrease..
but when i see a stack of notes and ws tat i need to study and do.. i feel very lonely..very helpless.. very stressed.. haiz.. however.. mayb it's time for me to think abt it all over again.. and be wad i wan to be.. a nerd.
pandaboo penned at 5/10/2006 12:43:00 am
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