Thursday, January 18, 2007
I did not blog for quite a while is it? Well, come here blog blog bah. My keyboard keys got so sticky and keep on get stuck..Zzzz
Well, I went for the Chingay volunteer thing. I went alone without any friends. So sad. But i went there for experience and fun. Almost 100 tpjcians signed up for it. There are 450 volunteers and they are mostly made up for tpjc, mjc and cjc people. Quite a number of HCI students too. Saw gwen, wynne, huijun they all there too, with their friends of course. Saw Weijia also, he's the leader of the leaders, in-charge of logistics.
I don't know why, I have this illness that i need to cure. This illness, I did not really notice it until that day. Alright, we were all split into sectors and groups and we had our 'orientation' to know the people in your group. Somehow, my group wasn't that enthu. We see others play games, dancing all these. We did play games too, but quite boring. And my illness is, I am so tensed up! I have no idea why I am so nervous and tensed up when i sat with the group in a circle. It's just pure introduction and I also got so tensed up. I cannot look at the others in their face, my neck or face will become very tensed or in chinese we say "jing beng". And i can feel i shiver a little. WTH! In my mind, i keep telling myself not to worry all these, make new friends, but my body just don't react to it! Gosh, i think i have to solve this problem asap, or else how to make new friends?!
Today, I did some stupid stuffs and made quite a fool of myself. During chinese lesson, when the teacher asked us to go down to mark attendence, i have no idea why i jumped down from the 3rd row. Actually i just wanted to go down by stepping on the seats. I no idea why i so kan jiong also. In the end got commented by the teacher -.-" so paiseh. Then, I was quite bored and i keep sabo rahman today. Not really sabo, but i keep shouting out his names when some girls walk pass. -.-"" why am i doing such bo liao stuffs?
And, I somehow don't know why got related to 06s14 people, the girls seems to hate me and keep staring at me when i walk by. Please, spare me ahh! I really scared of them sia.
Ohya, tuesday i skipped chem lecture and went for squash. Reason is because i forgot got chem lecture until that day itself. Somemore, i already promised squash people that i will be attending the CCA that day, i don't want to go back on my words. I've been breaking all these promises last year, not purposely. I always have stuffs crashed with squash trainings. Do some counting, i guess i went for squash trainings for less than 10 times.
I told Ms Leow that i have squash that day and i am unable to attend the lecture if there isn't any very important stuff. She didn't say much. But the next day, she keep shooting me, saying that i skipped. I apologised on the class forum, she scold me somemore. Accusing me of skipping MANY lessons last year. I really got fedup because i don't remember skipping MANY lessons. The most, 1 or 2, but with valid reason. And she was scolding me as if i skipped more than 10 plus lessons... So i went forum and complained with 2 whole long posts.
A little sian now.
Ohya, today's PE, we ran 8 laps!! To prepare for road run -.-"" But I only ran 5 or 6 because halfway i went to drink water.. haha.. Ohya, i noticed another illness of mine. Don't know is it i'm so unhealthy or what, people run till their face will turn red, I run till my face turns pale. What do i lack? How i wish there is a machine that can do a quick body checkup to know where i'm injured, what vitamins i lack, what illness i got....
Ohya, went to see doctor last week and asked about my panda eyes. He says that it's fats under my eyes to cause the shape. And it is blood clot that caused it to be black. Blood clot because of eye strain/stress and radiation. Yup, maybe i used computer too much. He says that there's no way to cure it unless i go for cosmetic surgery and remove the blood clot inside -.-""
Somehow, I became more aware of my looks recently -.-"" Not sure why also, maybe i just wants to increase my confidence? Well, talk about having a fair skin, I don't mind actually. I tried to go tanning before but after i got tanned, my skin 'recovered' after a few days. Haiz.. maybe i need continuous tanning. But how? I don't even go out to the outdoor often.
That's all for today.. Going sleep now...
pandaboo penned at 1/18/2007 09:25:00 pm
think free.live free
: 4:38 pm