Thursday, November 03, 2005
once again, i'm at home again as it is a public holiday. library is closed. actually wanted to go mcd study.. but i am afraid tat we will get chased out... and might waste my whole day...den biondi said nvm.. go together with zhen ming they all.. i am afraid.. afraid tat too much ppl will cause us unable to study.. den nvm.. actually decided to go.. den biondi say his father's bd so he gtg at 5.. so i think.. hmm.. 12 den we will meet.. den do less than 1hr den will go eat.. like tat where got study much? so stay at home lo.. but den now very sian.. my mother on the phone outside in the living room.. my hse is nt big.. sound travels thru doors all tat... den somemore my mother's voice is those loud loud one.. how to study? den noise frm outside my window also comes in.. vehicles sound.. the beep beep beep sound of the lorries reversing.. the children shouting and playing.. dog barking.. all sorts of sound..
and den i remembered an advertisement.. the hp one.. alot noise outside. den he close the window liao den listen to the sound frm his home theatre system.. so shiok.. no sound can go into his room.. how i wish i can be like tat.. alright.. i wil try to finish venice ONCE AGAIN.. planned to finish by monday.. dragged till now! thursday! tml hope will be going lib and study some A maths and the sci.. hmm~.. i seems to be quite relaxed and motivated on tue and wed.. but today.. i had the same feeling of last week.. no!!~~
and i may seems to be able to ans most or ur qns.. this gives me confidence.. but i am afraid tat wad daniel say will happen...i may be answering all the qn correctly.. but i may nt do well in the real exam.. tats the worst part.. happened to me few times liao.. i may seems quite prepared for physics but everytime after the exam, everyone seems to get the correct ans and i do wrongly.. this suxs! haha.. nvm lah.. if its like tat.. its really my bad luck liao lo.. haiz.. k la.. i go study le.. cya...
我不想有这种感觉,可是这种无聊,压力大的心情又回来了.我怕了. 我怕我应付不了, 我怕事情不是我想象中的好. 本来是信心满满的,不过先在却变成这样. 父母对我的影响力好大哦… 昨晚被骂了,虽然不是完全因为学业上的事, 不过还是给我的心情增添了不必要的负担. 我的心情很沉重, 无法继续读书了… 为什么会这样? 为何我父母不了解我多一点? 我做我有兴趣的事有错妈? 又不是什么犯法的事. 我知到他门为我好, 不过就不要对我有太大的要求吧!Estimated Time Remaining to 'O' Levels Written Papers :
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pandaboo penned at 11/03/2005 03:00:00 pm
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