Thanks samantha for your comments.. now den i realised tat i muz really stand up again.. this week.. skipped sch.. went out to study, but in the end only done some work.. at least some revision.. but tat was too little..
and i regret installing steam program again.. now i'm quite addicted to playing counter strike liao.. die.. at the very last moments den got addicted again.. wad sia.. until i come to my own blog.. read sam's comments liao den i realise tat.. or else i am gonna slack all the way till o lvl.. den all my hardwork throughout these years will go down to the drain.. i dowan tat.. i already wasted alot time liao.. i dowan to fail this o lvl... as i said.. english very very important.. but till now i am still very very careless in my language.. mayb i am too used to write these singlish in blogs and chats.. now i cant even do simple grammer questions.. dun even tok abt vocab..
now i'm telling myself.. after these 4 days of playing.. i shld be satisfied and de-stress liao.. i shld now work harder.. now my parents keep reminding me dun fall into the game traps again.. it will be very difficult to get up again... i am trying hard now.. no more playing.. even my eyes are unhappy.. i had sore eye few days ago and now my right eye hav blur vision.. i think gonna be shortsighted liao.. NO! i dowan wear specs! gonna look at far objects and green objects to let my eyes rest after every hour of work...eyes are important.. in fact.. every part of the body is important...my fren recently got infected by dengue.. and was sent to the hospital on thursday night.. luckily, he got discharged today.. i believe he will recover soon.. he will be able to attend the practical on tue and fully recover as soon as possible...
english seems so so so scary.. other subjects too.. but i am consoling myself tat i am quite prepared for o levels liao.. to make me not to worry so much.. or else i gonna suffer frm depression.. everyone now seems to be so stressed and tensed up.. pressurised.. and to kc.. forget all ur worries.. juz concentrate on ur studies first... i noe i am nt in the position to encourage u as i cant even control myself.. but juz wanna all of u to do well.. dun regret..
i am now experiencing being poor.. having no money to eat.. finally experienced it.. i cannot afford food tat is very expensive.. my father had retired.. my family had no income now.. juz using my savings.. and me? still want this want that.. spending so much.. go out one time at least $20.. tats alot alot.. den plus stationeries i haven even buy.. i think i gonna spend abt $30 juz for these writing materials and a 2nd calculator incase my current one fail to work.. i still owe ppl money.. i dun think i hav the money to return them yet.. i still hav alot of desires which i think i shld nt hav now.. haiz... gonna take out few thgs frm my wishlist liao.. X-Fi soundcard.. MP3 player.. upgrade comp.. i think these are nt necessary anymore.. although i will try to get them.. but wont force myself.. i muz remember tat money is hard to earn.. and it limited for me now..
damn.. feeling hungry again.. i dunno y.. i keep feeling hungry after awhile.. i may eat little.. but frequent.. but den now.. one time go out mayb $4 frm my mother... how to eat much? one meal already abt $5 liao.. i wan eat frequent also cannot.. wanna pu on some weight also got problem.. last time can eat dowan eat.. now cannot eat liao den wan eat so much.. haiz...
these few days i alot prob lah.. sore eye.. den now 3 ulcer on my tongue.. and 1 in my mouth.. damn pain lo.. den the braces keep rubbing against it.. the pain is killing me.. but think of how my fren suffer frm dengue.. my ulcer is nth compared to him.. having to carry one bag of 'water' everywhere he go.. even to toilet.. den muz keep having blood test.. really very sad...
ok.. gonna go slp now.. later 3am gonna wake up study chem.. i seems to forget the plan i made last month.. on which day study wad subject.. becuz of alot factors.. first 2 weeks like waste time in sch.. so i hav to make up for the subjects.. den i start to get tired after so much studying.. den slack slack.. till now.. 33hours 30mins left to my practical exams and estimated 344 hours and 30mins before the start of my written papers.. omg.. i gonna make use of these times... make full use of it!!!!!!!!
i never been so down since May, seen my last few posts? i am really depressed and discouraged.. make me feel so tired.. so tired of studying.. so tired of life.. i just wants to lie down on my bed and forget abt everythg... i refuse to get up.. i want to slp.. i want to forget abt all these thgs.. i rather live in my dreamland.. but now.. i hav to come back to real life.. why is it so difficult just to study?! (viewing at another angle so that i wont giv myself other reasons)... i am now a student.. all i havto do is to study! so easy! juz take out the book.. read.. understand and folo the skills and be exam smart.. (no use being intelligent for now -.- ) .. juz be exam smart.. score.. get ur distinctions and say bye to boring secondary life!!! y izzit so difficult! other can do it.. y cant i?! even if i nv putin enough hardwork.. juz do my best now! i have no choice.. juz do it!(nike..=D ) .. haha.. dun mind abt wad others say..juz do my best.. cannot go jc also nv mind.. as long as i do my best.. but dun lie to myself tat i had done my best even if i dont.. dun ever lie to urself...
ohya.. i remembered somethg.. always mdm rogayah giv vocab test.. always i dunno.. ppl giv me hints and i nv even say.. i noe the reason liao.. cuz i dowan lie to myself.. wad for gets it correct with the hint frm frens.. i myself dunno wad.. dunno still act noe.. like cheating liao.. dunno means dunno.. get all the scoldings.. laughs at myself.. nvm.. as long as i learn can liao..
okok... sry for my english.. i gonna slp now.. k.. byebye...
Estimated Time Remaining to 'O' Levels Practical exams :
33hrs 30minsEstimated Time Remaining to 'O' Levels Written Papers :
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pandaboo penned at 10/23/2005 10:42:00 pm
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