"i am disappointed with my results, i am disappointed with myself".. said this alot of times.. to frens and to myself and even in blogs.. but wad hav i done? i am still slacking.. how am i going to get gd grades? my sci is quite ok now.. at least i got practice...but for my maths.. especially my e maths.. deproving.. a maths.. i do papers till i wan cry.. so many dunno how to do.. i wonder wad will happen if i go into the exam hall like tat.. am i going to giv up??
ok.. tat a maths was quite ok.. but now i realised my english really suxs.. i noe it suxs long time ago.. but i dint noe tat i am at the stage tat i cant even write a compo... jx always say his eng very lousy.. but den i read his compo.. wow.. at least looks like a secondary compo.. mine? i dun think i can even pass PSLE.. i am very very worried now.. i heard my oral exam juz passed.. 20-22 like tat.. oral leh! get this marks.. supposed to pull me up! and my compre.. sometimes can smoetimes cannot.. if they giv a chim passage.. den i die liao... compo.. i am stuck between writing an argumentative essay or narrative... i dunno which one i am better.. dunno which one i can at least write.. both can be easy.. narrative.. if u hav the ideas and can sub in phrases or vocabs to describe feelings.. den nice liao.. argumentative also.. but depends on the topic.. and if i see it at a wrong angle and used wrong words to describe.. i am the confirm fail type.. i'm stuck in between.. last time i still noe wad is required for argumentative.. like.. rhetorical qns.. and how many support points and how many negative points.. now i dunno le..
den i learnt in my tuition tat narrative.. juz hav to extreme ur ideas and like write in degrees lo.. den EVERY para muz mention abt the topic.. weird hor.. but some ppl like daniel and kc they all can score.. while i cant.. teacher even write i am unrealistic.. sian.. wad am i going to do? is there anyone tat can enlighten me? now i really rather take chinese than english.. i prefer chinese to english.. chinese is so much easier.. =(
ok.. today shld be my 2nd last day go sch liao.. i wan to take my own study leave.. force myself to catch up.. expecially my a maths and phy and chem...COMBINED HUMANITIES! so tat i wont giv myself reasons like i am too tired after coming back.. or night time no one to ask qn and den dowan do.. no excuse for now..
these few days slacking.. even had feelings of giving up.. juz shui bian go take exam.. cuz my father ask me go poly.. den say i cannot make it into jc... wad dun waste my time.. later go jc fail.. haiz... so discouraging.. den now i confused.. no aim.. no goal.. i only noe i wan to get a cert.. earn money... =(
and i am going to say tat this WONT be my last time being online.. i wont be saying i dowan online liao.. all crap.. i cant do it.. everytime like tat.. now everytime on comp juz to listen songs.. no one online to chat also.. all studying.. i also wan study.. next week is practical liao.. 2 more weeks is written liao.. how nice i am still online writing this blog.. haiz... STUDY!
Good Luck to all of u! no matter u r my fren.. enemy.. no one.. stranger or wadsoever.. juz Wish all of you best of luck for everything you all do!!!
pandaboo penned at 10/17/2005 06:13:00 pm
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