Thursday, August 18, 2005
today wanted to study... but den my fren come my hse.. but still manage to study my phy again.. but so sry i cant relpy hy and help anh all these.. cuz i really busy and i am nt using the comp.. but i got sa kc's conver..
he said tat he cant understand y i wan retake.. he say i am doing nth abt it.. but do u ever care to ask wad i doing first before u say tat? i was concentrating on my physics....and i yah i noe.. decision i make can destiny my whole life...i am nt regreting.. or at least YET...i choose my path.. and this is wad i wan.. i believe tat wif interest, i can do it well..
i know u all mean well.. but den.. a fren is different frm a teacher and a VP... and thgs said to a fren is different frm saying to a teacher or VP.. all of u say the same thg.. same as my parents.. no one gav me some encouraging comments.. i know also... except some my other frens say tat i must work hard to get it.. but frm my parents.. teachers.. even frens.. say tat i will NEVER get the grade.. now i am hearing the 'speech' frm my father.. saying the same old thg.. his mindset is tat.. "DONT OFFEND THE SCHOOL".. wtf? wanting to retake will offend the sch? he say if i dun offend.. the VP will help me by giving me tuition.. giving me better grades for prelims.. giving me more time for my other subject.. wtf?! how can exams like tat unfair? giving me better grades? bring up the grade?! frm C6 can change to B3?! wah lau.. wad kind of thg is this?! and by giving me tuition and help me?! when the hell VP says tat? she dun even hav time to sit down and slowly tok to ask!!! den giving me more time? change the chinese periods to those periods i wan?! omg?! he thinks he can really control the sch.. dun lame lah! i STRONGLY DISAGREE wif him.. i wanted to tok back.. but i noe if i say somethg like "VP where got like tat say...".. he will sure scold me and say "HAV! I SAY HAV MEANS HAV... u dun listen to me.. u will die.. sure die one.. " wah lau... i am nt convinced..
he dunno how sch is conducted also.. juz like i dropped bio.. wad we do during bio lessons? got chased out by the teacher and go other place to do own stuff.. or do phy even though we hav no qns.. den now becuz of these reasons.. he asked me to tell VP tat i dowan retake.. wah lau?! frankly speaking.. HAV HE EVER THOUGHT ABT HOW I FEEL?! he dunno how the results are calculated.. he dunno how we study.. he dunno when is my exam.. he dunno everythg.. i bet he dun even noe wad i get for chinese until VP told him today.. i am really disappointed.. i hav nth else to say.. are they being realistic? i think they contradict themselves.. how i wish i can record the conversation between him and me.. erm.. i mean the 'speech' by him.. but its rude.. i cant do tat.. but i'm sure teck hua noe quite well who my parents are.. ok.. everythg settle.. i dowan to say.. i dun care.. i will juz study....
pandaboo penned at 8/18/2005 06:26:00 pm
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