Thursday, August 04, 2005
so DAMN IT! i am very unhappy now.. sad and angry.. very very very sad!! juz came back frm sch.. and u all shld noe.. its abt my chem pract.. its PRELIM chem pract.. and u noe waD? i think it will be very GOOD already if i pass.. cuz i left 8marks of blank! yes.. i dint finish my practical.. i was too slow.. the qn abit abit misleading.. especially the first part.. say add solid T.. but they wrote "add YOUR SAMPLE OF T.." .. at first i tot it was one spoon.. the small spoon.. but den like somehow saw ppl put the whole pack.. den i also put lo.. den see teachers bringing in beakers of the solid.. den i noe somethg is wrong liao.. so i redo.. damn it.. it react so slow..
den do do do.. titration do 4 times somemore.. den i skip the calculations first.. cuz i only left 40mins or less.. so i do the qn 2.. i noe i do very slowly.. i tot still wil hav time left.. but by the time i finish the experiments.. only left 10mins for my conclusions all these... the worse part is.. i nv record my observations in pen.. i record it in pencil at another side.. so i hav to copy all the results in.. dammit.. and i forgot wad i wanna add in to my observations.. like the reddish brown ppt all these.. den i nv write the ions for qn 2.. 3 marks.. i knew its was somethg like iron ammonia and one more.. forgot liao.. den the first qn muz identify T.. nv write also.. 2marks.. den the calculation part.. 3 marks blank.. dun even hav time to read the qn.. all together 8marks + some observations wrong + forgot add in.. i wanted to write partially soluble for the T in aq ammonia.. but den i forgot.. i was in a rush and juz copy every thg frm my observations in pencil...
so.. dammit... the whole paper is 25 marks i think.. and i lose abt 10marks liao.. WTF IS THIS?! WTF AM I DOING TODAY?!....PRACTICAL SUPPOSE TO PULL ME UP! MIDYEAR WAS MY PRACT TAT MADE ME PASS! now how! its PRELIMS and i do such a stupid thg!
den somemore.. my parents keep saying i cant study.. i dunno how to 'read books' in chinese.. its du shu.. like say until i dunno how to read like tat.. very angry.. den now my father ask me consider going to malaysia for my future studies.. WAH LAU.. malaysia! i think its quite ok.. but i dun like.. cuz like wad kc say.. like downgrade liao tat.. but its an australian university tat locate their brunch in malaysia.. i dunno wan go anot.. and very little courses...either busniess or engineering.. i hav only 2 choice.. IT business or juz electrical engineering... wah lau! i dunno lah! i juz wish i can go into sg uni! i wan to be like everyone else!!!
i now very very sad.. very low mood.. how? i noe u all can say juz do better for o lvl one.. but den.. this is prelims.. which decides alot of thg.. my phy pract also.. took a spoilt micrometer srew guage i also dunno.. tat really suxs....and.. and... i have nth to say.. i now feel tat there is somethg pressing on me.. until i cant even raise my head.. i now walk wif my head face down.. i hav no face to see ppl around me.. especially teachers.. some hav so much hope on me but i giv such a result...wad a shame.. i promised nt to play game.. i done it.. except for testing my new battlefield 2 game for juz awhile.. nv really play.. tats it.. but i still spend alot of my time on my computer.. dling wad windows vista.. and those movies.. waste my time.. now hw starts to stack up again.. in fact.. already got alot maths hw..den now hav to really buck up my chem.. today will nt be easy to spend.. i regret i always nv pay attention in class.. so alot thgs i dunno.. cuz textbook dun hav.. but wad textbook hav... i sure noe.. cuz i always study textbook.. i cant study my notes.. cuz i dun even noe how to file my notes.. tat suxs.. i now den noe listening in class is so important.. phy.. i nv study for dc motor.. but i listen in class only.. i passed a test while quite alot ppl fail... listening in class is important.. arghh!!!!!
Lesson Learnt today.. "Don't do thgs slowly" .. "Pay attention in class"... "do all the hw"... " study frm notes.. not textbook"...dammit!!!!!!! i suxs...
pandaboo penned at 8/04/2005 05:12:00 pm
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