today.. a sad sad day.. singing a sad sad song walking a sad sad way.. sad sad sad.. after my a maths.. or even when i juz started the a maths exam today.. my mood juz drop to the ground.. almost all the qn i dunno how to do.. even if i noe.. the ans is somehow wrong.. dunno y.. think very long still the same.. even the easiest of all i also dunno.. like differenciation.. and matrix.. easy one! and the last qn.. straight line graph.. i cant get.. means 10 marks gone.. i feel tat i will be the worst in the class... really really..
imagine.. every qn i dun even noe how to start.. i dunno lah.. y some ppl can juz get A1 so easily??? mayb i lack practice.. this is wad ppl say.. do more den noe.. but i can admit lah.. i nv touch a maths very long liao.. even if i touch.. whenever i dunno.. i juz skip.. even if i ask liao.. noe liao.. i also forgot.. dunno.. i feel i lacking of time.. dun tell me to study other subjects this month.. cuz this month is somehow my chinese month.. my first O lvl paper.. i wan a gd impression of it.. and i always say.. i wan A1.. and i MUST get A1.. dunno y.. alot reasons i think.. but i think if i nv get an A for my chinese.. i can dun go out of my hse liao.. no face..
den.. a maths.. i promise.. i will work for it this june holidays.. and i going to work for my chemistry.. physics and a maths.. this 3 will be the main focus..bio i dunno.. i tot of dropping it alot times liao.. and cuz my parents dun noe much.. they say "no use den drop lor! cannot cope den drop lor!" say till so easy.. dunno lah.. wan seek for comments first.. whether i shld drop or not.. my own reason is.. if i carry on failing like this.. its a completely waste of time.. i can do better if i dun recieve much pressure.. the moment i see mrs tay.. no matter wad distance.. i still feel the force.. M = Fd.. haha.. the pressure and the hatred in her wif me.. can see.. she hate me.. neither do haliza like me.. cuz y? i nv do hw.. i nv listen in class.. and most importantly.. i fail the tests...
bio... see the courses in poly or university.. bio is no use.. unless for biomedical or wan be doctor tat kind of course.. den hav bio.. or else.. bio is juz no use..if i go jc, i wont take bio also.. so its juz like 2 years wasted on bio.. but the reason for me to stay on.. is i wan to experience it.. bio.. seems so 'seh' when tell others.. and den like quite fun to learn thgs in body or wad.. but its real difficult.. my mother's fren's son or daugther.. almost all go JC one.. and its TJC.. wif 10 to 13 points...and they were saying.. bio so easy! a maths so easy! everythg is easy to them.. except comb humanities.. my malaysia relative all going university liao.. and i will lose out if go a lousier one.. some of u may understand the pressure.. some not.. but i dunno how say lah..
so.. i need comments frm u all.. whether i shld drop bio anot.. i noe some ppl got alot thgs to say.. like kc or daniel.. mayb kc nv read lah.. but daniel sure alot reasons for his decision.. so i can "chan kao" hahahaha.. tats y everytime ask him.. den can analyse his reasons.. haha.. k lah.. i dunno wad to say liao.. toooo sad liao.. my phy also.. shit lah! geog.. 19 marks gone juz like tat.. always see after exam den alot ppl say this say tat and i noe nth.. soo bad feeling..
pandaboo penned at 5/10/2005 01:40:00 pm
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