Tuesday, November 09, 2004
ok la.. find abit time to blog.. although tml is my bio re-paper.. or can say its retest la.. but i haven start learning or can say is studying yet.. ya.. juz backed frm dental.. but surprisingly.. today i nv brace.. hehe.. ahya.. den gt abit disagreement between my father and me again.. on which type of brace to choose.. old and cheap one or the new and abit expensive one...
of course... the new one is more high tech and better.. 10 weeks den go check one time.. but den the cheap one is 1 month check one time.. and muz pay a fee la.. for the cheap one.. i think is pay $100 each time till MAX $2300.. and the expensive one i also forgot.. but i heard is 10weeks $140 like tat.. but my father say is $300+.. dunno la.. till a MAX of $2800.. and i really remembered i heard.. if my situation get better.. and can take off the braces before i pay till $2800... they will refund us the remaining money lo.. but my father insist tat there is no such thg.. den i ask him call and ask.. he scold me liao.. wah lau.. i dun hav a say in everythg one la..
today.. so sick.. i nv eat.. cuz break time go see mdm low.. tok abt last fri thg again.. den nv eat lo.. very hungry during bio lesson.. but muz tahan.. den started to feel unwell liao.. den tot i go see mr beh for meeting liao den can go buy thgs eat and come back home rest.. but cant.. i muz take the nat's bio note frm daniel and photocopy.. i tot he study liao leh! den he say he wanted it back.. den.. no choice lo.. sch cant photocopy.. hav to walk to my hse this side.. i am damn unwell and hav to walk wif the stupid heavy bag.. i noe.. tats my prob.. i really noe tat.. and if i tell daniel tat.. he will sure say "tats ur problem lo.. who ask u nv eat... who ask u need see mr beh... who ask u yesterday dowan take the notes.. who ask u...." i can predict.. so dowan argue wif him la.. so i suffer abit la.. wif a hungry and tired plus sick situation.. walked to the shop.. and saw bunch of ppl inside.. hy they all.. also photocopying...hy photocopy the most la.. all chem notes... for her tutor.. wah lau.. i was waiting.. and mayb tat shop person nv see me or wad.. den one other auntie come in and say "photocopy one of this... one can liao".. den the shop person photocopy for her.. damn lo! i was queuing for 30mins leh! dammit.. den like tat cut queue.. i was really going to faint.. den photocopy liao.. daniel came.. take the notes and went home.. me still hav to walk till the other end.. the foodcourt and eat..
at tat time damn alot of ppl.. den faster eat liao.. den hav to rush back to sch for meeting.. den by the time i reach home.. abt 4pm liao.. so tired.. sick.. and wadsoever.. really tahan till the time i put down my bag and all thgs.. i jump on bed liao.. erm.. nt jump.. juz lie.. fall on bed.. and slp all the way.. in between gt few calls.. although i pick up.. i dunno wad they toking.. juz ok ok ok and ok.. den bye!.. den i continue to slp.. until 6pm.. parents come back.. ask me go bath.. and start to scold me for nt ready as my dental appointment is 6.30pm.. den i'm half awake.. den hurry went to bath and den mother cook mee pok.. den i eat damn fast.. wif yakult.. den go brush teeth all tat so fast.. tat its done in 20mins only.. all!!! haiz.. den rush down to my father's car and hurry to the dental liao... den in the end.. only talk abt wad wad wad..
den say i shld go for early treatment.. now my teeth and jaws all tat is facing downwards.. which makes my face long.. and this is cuz i breathe thru mouth more often.. and my teeth is nt bad and only the top front part where cuz my tougue keep pushing it forward and hence like tat.. other than tat.. i'm ok.. but wan brace.. and +++ alot other thg.. wad rubber band thg.. wah lau.. den alot money.. haiz...
ok.. long blog today.. hav to rush to complete my bio today.. ok.. mdm low.. talked to me.. abt fong case.. she said tat every year she also saw this kind of thg happening.. and she shared wif me some experience la.. but some cant say.. =p
den.. she said fong is like tat.. her way of thinking is very different.. her way of treatment is different.. blah blah blah.. all these la.. and den ask me to forgiv her.. and say when i forgiv her.. i will feel better.. and ask me to apologise for being late.. and she said puntuality(dunno izzit like tat spell anot) is very imp.. i noe.. but i late for fong.. i dun care... and say alot thg.. ask me next time dun like tat.. and if i say sorry to her.. den den fong will be upset cuz she failed to make me angry or wad la.. i was thinking.. siao.. fong is a siao person.. really 'fong' (crazy).. like tat of person also hav.. and my father was saying.. "ren!" (tolerate) cuz out in the society.. there r more ppl like tat.. ya i understand.. mdm low says i hav a strong character.. dun like the sayings or wadsoever fong do to break me down and destroy me.. i noe tat! i wont! but i also wont giv in.. but for my own benefit.. i hav to apologise for wad i hav done.. ONLY if fong tok abt it again.. and.. we shld pity her.. pity her for nt able to do a better job.. if she is late.. she nv apologise.. we shld pity her and feel sorry for her for being this kind of idiotic person.. and forgiv her or wadsoever.. ya.. i understand.. and i wont say anythg again until after o lvl.. unless its too extreme...
ya.. i have a STRONG character.. i stand on my stand firmly.. ppl asked me to let the matter rest.. ok fine.. i let it off for 10months.. but i wont fully let the matter rest.. i WILL sure say somethg after o lvl.. i really cant stand her... ya... mdm low was saying.. the word "ren"(in chinese) is "xin shang cha dao" ( knife stab on the heart) *as the word 'ren' is written la..* 忍忍忍.. for those can read chinese word.. tats how it's written.. and can see.. it also looks like there is blood coming out frm the heart.. ya.. mdm low said its pain... but once u forgiv and forget.. it wont hurt anymore.. but i was thinking.. the scar tat fong did on me.. cannot be erased.. i will remember it.. i WILL!... its a scar.. ya.. i also make scar.. or i may stab myself even more.. cuz.. i'm nt able to voice up for myself.. and let ppl insult.. let others say.. let others make up stories abt me.. and i will be upset and regret tat i cant speak up or reason it out for myself.. hence i will stab myself more.. feel sorry for myself! "dui bu qi zi ji".. haiz.. but no choice.. the scar will be there.. and remind me.. for nt being someone like fong.. and be a better person all these la...
ohya.. thx for those who understand me.. and thx for those who write comments.. and thx for those who encourage and advise me.. and tat shld be thx to everyone.. but i will hate fong the same.. even though i heard she looked after a orphanage last time.. really took care for tat person.. i'm shocked to hear tat.. nv tot she was tat gd.. but i still believe their is other thgs behind it.. i will still hate her for her attitude.. and i'm sure she tok bad abt me infront of alot of teachers.. even those who dunno me.. but mdm low says.. "u gt 8 teacher.. one tok bad abt u.. u hav 7 more.. the 7.. we understand her.. and we will nt really believe wad she said.. as she dun really say the facts.. as we noe her style.. so.. u dun need to worry"... ya.. but wad if she said it to other teachers who dunno me? and the teachers believed her? and wad happen if i gt to work wif the teacher in other thgs and remembered my name "weirong" as a rude person who is very bad.. den die lo.. haiz.....ok la.. cya.. i hav to go study liao...
pandaboo penned at 11/09/2004 07:43:00 pm
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